And just like that, her heart was broken...And it just can't stop breaking and shattering into dozens and dozens of pieces... No matter how hard she tries to forget. How hard she tries to act 'normal'... It was impossible...She was still broke... She was still numb... She was still suffering in an endless loop of heartbreak and depression... Every day she tries to cope, it doesn't do anything anymore... She doesn't wanna go down that road again... It doesn't matter how depressed and broken she is, she promised not to go down that road. She see's him. And she sees her friends. And her best friends. They were happy...so..happy...She envy's them so much. She'll take the pain! All of it... as long as she can just... feel happy again... just for a second... That's all she needed. She can't take it. It hurts. But at the same time, its numbing. She's such a screw up. They all say otherwise, but they're just being nice...They dont understand...Every day. Everyone... A smile is laid upon their face. She's happy for you... All of you. Those who are reading this included. She's so proud of you. But she cannot take anymore of herself. The only coping left to do... is cry alone. Every night. It's all she can do to keep her thoughts at bay. Even now as she listens to sad music to drown everything out. Even now when she reads books to pass time so she can start crying again. Even now as she eats lunch and listens to people calling her fat and ugly and foureyes. She knows the truth that she has found out. No one could replace Him. No matter how hard she tried. Nothing could do it. And if somehow he reads this..... I'm Happy For You...
