PERHAPS, I'LL SIMPLY NEVER SLEEP AGAIN

The morning benders shedding my skin

I wake up to know he is still next to me

I look at him with wonder

the striking lighting of harsh sun rays fall right through us

I rush my fingers gently through his hair

Getting close to him,

I get myself high by looking at his gleaming eyes

I whisper in his ears, ''morning''

I kiss his lips and breathe on his chin

He smiles holding me tight like he knew my troubled mind

I place my head on his chest

He plays with my hair

My tears fall on his chest

He says, ''It feels warm''

I giggle.

He lifts my chin and directs to look at him

I put my faith into each breath

He leans in to kiss me

I lean in too

''I'd never let you go'', he says

I align my heart, my body and my mind and say, ''I know''

He runs his hand down my neck, around my shoulder to my spine

covering my back with the blanket, he says, ''I love you''

It was the afternoon of extravagant delight

We lived on a very dream of today

It was just the two of us

everything was gold

We were shinning bright as ever before

Lets say, it was an imaginary realm were we lived in.

We lived on sunlight and chocolate doughnuts

We dipped ourselves in the mud of our joy

Thousand of birds, the tiniest of all, sang our song

He'd climb balcony

He'd climb tress

He'd get stars down from there to here

He'd build a giant wheel of laughter

He'd make those fireflies dance in circles

He'd do anything for her, said the world

You know what? He actually would.

We kept seeking for love

Until we knew the consequence,

it was eating us, slow and tender.

It was too late for us to part our ways.

The pain of every heartbeat was mistaken as a bliss.

I was wet in the rain of bogusness.

He surrendered.

I clenched my fist.

Love was gone.

Love was lost in the seas of lies and regrets.

The ship slowly sank to the lowest depth.

And may be, unfortunately,

but yes, the low, started to comfort me.

He walked away but returned when it got dim.

I said, ''I am sorry, I am lost. My head feels heavy''

He said, ''I've got you. You're safe here, with me.''

I believed him.

He pushed my worried voice,

asking to step out in the streaming moonlight, he said,

''You know I'd dance my way right back into your heart.''

Reaching out for my hand, he asked, ''Shall we?''

I could feel an adrenaline rush in my veins.

His sinful voice,

tempts me to lie to myself.

Oh. We made love that night.

This time, our bodies were melting but hearts never cared any less.

Oh my lover. Did you know?

With you in me, comes the hatch of death.

I ask, why was it not the same anymore?

Perhaps, I'll simply never sleep again.

That one mirror was holding us dearer, 

but souls were distant from each other.

This is it!

May be this is what we are after.

Harsh sunlight, I rub my eyes.

I gaze into it, to just burn my eyes out.

Oh. How did we end up like this?

Why are you still holding me like I mean the world to you?

I recall. What day is it?

Wait. It is Friday.

Oh God. The mother of blueness is here.

The angel of storm.

The following to hopelessness is startling us.

I look at him and plead,

''ask the sun to fly away''.

Tears rolling down his cheeks,

I brush my hand against his cold skin,

and with tears in my eyes,

I say, remember me in my opaqueness.

His breath, hot upon my cheek.

And again, we cross that line.

We did burn to the ground last night, you know.

And left a view to admire, you know that too, right? I ask.

May be, being foolish was the most sane thing to do.

I open my eyes.

Still, it is Friday.

They say, there is only one thing to love and only one thing to die for .

Babe, and it can not be you.

But still, I always end up loving you.

Heartbeats frantic as ever before.

I look everywhere.

But he can not be found.

Suddenly, I see a broken silhouette across the door.

I force a laughter,

But I sure was glad to see him.

The grey smoke curled up around him,

with the ashtray next to him,

he lights off the last cigarette.

He looks straight at my scratched knees from last night 

I think, he even passed a coy smile.

With the blanket draped on my naked body,

I sit next to him on the entrance of the room.

He leans in and kisses my forehead.

And there, his one touch sedates my demented mind.

I whisper in his ear, ''morning''

He takes me in his arms,

brightens my day with that smile of his,

and says,''I love you so very much. Do you still love me as much as you always did?''

I kiss his cold red lips and say,''Yes. I love you too. Even more as much as I did ever before''