| 𝐏𝐎𝐈𝐍𝐓 𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐊 𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐎𝐃 ✓ noah schnapp

'MENTAL BREAKDOWNS'

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"what is up my roaches!" carmen shouted obviously joking. she had the camera propped up on a box  as she sat on the floor.
"seriously though, i need a name for you guys! and i'm not picking it because if i do it will be either really stupid, or really random" carmen explained.

carmen grabbed her phone and showed the camera the time.
"so it's currently—12:37 PM, i'm supposed to be in bed asleep, but i'm big stressing..."

"you wanna know why?—we'll i'm about to tell you why...it's kinda a long story so get comfortable"

carmen looked down, sighed and then started laughing. "i look like i'm doing a apology video"she laughed. "sorry i keep getting off topic, ADHD" the video was edited to zoom in and have a distorted filter on when she said 'ADHD'.

"so this summer—my youtube channel skyrocketed okay? like i gained at least 500k surprisingly..."carmen started the story.

"here's some information from my freshman year, so that was when my youtube kinda got big,,so obviously my friends used to tease me and stuff but it kinda got worse to where like the whole school knew and would tease me..."

"so i almost lowkey deleted my channel because i'm a sensitive little bitch and thought i had depression from that, but LUCKILY my mom was like 'no sweetie don't listen to the bullies and haters'—whatever whatever, now fast forward to right now, present day. i'm gonna be sophomore in under twenty-four hours, and i feel like it's gonna be less a big deal about teasing BUT" carmen stopped to breathe.

a text popped up on the corner of the screen saying "wtf why am i out of breathe baha".

"—i mean this in the MOST NOT NARCISSISTIC WAY but i think, that like i will get noticed" she made a cringing face.

"i'm scared people will try and take photos of me because i have get VERY awkward when like meeting my supporters, so if i ever met you and i acted weird i apologize.."carmen said.

"but that's why i'm stressing so much—and i don't have a outfit picked out yet!"carmen sighed and fell backwards to lay down. she then exhausted let out a loud groan.

"i hate highschool"

the video cut to her by her closet. "hello everyone, i don't think i have ever shown you guys this part of my room—but here it is!"carmen shouted and immediately regretted shouting. "i probably should be quiet because my mom is gonna break my neck if she hears me up this late"carmen nervously laughed.

"this is my closet, it's slightly small and i kinda have to stuff some clothes in my drawers because i have so much clothes, i'm going to pick my clothes out right now"carmen turned towards the closet and looked through.

"see i'm very indecisive, so i will probably pick out a outfit tonight but change it in the morning..."

"um, i think i'm gonna wear"carmen had to jump up a bit to snatch a sweatshirt from a top shelf where she keeps her sweatshirts.

"it's just a brownish nude color? um i don't know—that's the sweatshirt" carmen then opened the other side of the closet to reveal all her pants.

"hmm, i think i'm going to wear these plaid pants, they are green and blue and i think from brandy"carmen turned towards the camera after saying brandy.

"i don't recommend to shop their because everything is so cute but it's so freaking expensive! and you get so caught up and end up walking out with your credit card in debt"she laughed.

"anyways, there is the outfit for tomorrow...i was gonna say i'll see you tomorrow in then morning BUT forgot that i'm not vlogging because ADHD"the video zoomed in like earlier when she said ADHD.

"bro you know what bothers me?"she walked over to the camera and picked it up.

"so recently i've been very open with how i have ADHD since i used to be scared people would judge me for it and think i had some like disease, until like everyone on twitter categorized them to have ADHD so i was 'Oh i can be open about ADHD now yay'"

"but when i started mentioning it in my videos people comment and are like "carmen tries to make ADHD a personality trait""

"I know ADHD isn't a freaking personality trait it's just that my ADHD affects my life on a daily basis so it technically has become something with my personality, like i get very nervous and awkward soooo, you tell me if i'm right or right"carmen ranted.

she then shook her head dismissing.

"this video is probably really short so i'll see right now, and if it's short i'll probably just film more after school and do a update on stuff that happened"

"so, yeah! see you all on friday!" carmen blew a kiss at the camera before speaking again "eww, i hate that i just did—okay anyways bye"she laughed and the video ended.