A Never Ending Pain ( Sebastian x Suicidal!Grell )

Chapter Four

        Fortionatley for Grell, the director was still at the studio. Grell came out of his dressing room and went directally to him with only two words to tell him.

"I'm quitting."

        Sebastian heard him from a few rooms away. He could not believe what he was hearing. Grell was an important character in the series, and he was loved by thousands. He rushed to him. "Madam Sutcliff, you can't quit, don't do this because of me."

        "Get the hell out of my face! Get away!" He yelled and held his bags close, soon beginning to make his way towards the main doors. "Get a new actress.. I'm done." He grabbed his arm before he got any closer to the doors. "Wait, can you at least listen to what I have to say about all this?" He begged, not letting his grip loosen. Grell paused in his tracks, his eyes gently closing when he felt the others grip. "Five minutes.. You have five minutes.."

        He got down on his knee, bowing politely to the redhead. "I am terribly sorry about everything. From the bottom of my heart I feel the guilt and sorrow. I just felt like I needed some fun, but I didn't mean for you to be so hurt. I hang my head in shame. I'm deeply sorry, my... my lady." Sebastian sighed and closed his eyes

"I'll never forgive you.. You laughed at me, you made fun of the way I live.. How dare you, how dare you judge me for my problems.. I don't eat, I take those pills everyday so that I can stay on this job.. They didn't accept me the first time because I wasn't good enough, I didn't have the right body.. But now I do, I can't eat anything.. I'll drink water but that's it.. That's the truth. Laugh.. Go ahead.. Do it." Grell's eyes swelled up with tears immediatly.

        Sebastian was thrown aback from everything that he was being told. He shook his head. "I feel the worst about that. I'm sorry about your problem. I'm sorry for laughing. I'm sorry for making fun of you. You don't need pills, your body is perfect the way it is. I promise you that. Please, forgive me." Grell shook his head, "No.. No I won't.." He moved his hand then looked away, pulling his arm away and turning away. "Get used to life.. You won't get what you always want." He stated and started to head out.

        He stood up and sighed. He called out to him. "You do know that we need you right? We'll get you back on this set someday!" Grell glanced at Sebastian and frowned. "Never." He slammed the main door and headed home.

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        The night had passed by quickly, soon it was day time and the actor was on set. It was a female, completely different from Grell, she had brown hair and green contacts on and her weapon was an axe. Sebastian looked around and saw the new actress. He thought it was very different not having Grell on set. It felt... Sad, somehow. "We changed her personality as well, she's quiet and shy!" The director stated as the he smiled at Sebastian, "Hey~!" He looked over at the director and nodded politely. "Good morning, sir." "Go ahead and get on stage, we'll have a lot of work to do." He stated as the female actress glanced at Sebastian.

        He nodded and sighed softly. He walked onto the stage and looked at the new female actress. She said brightly and happily, "I'm Sasha Harkens!" He smiled politely at her. "I'm Sebastian Michaelis. We're very happy to have you as a part of our crew." He took her hand and gave it a light kiss, like a gentleman. "Mhm! They were happy to actually have a female to take this role, look how happy they are!" She motioned to the camera crew who glanced over her. He nodded. "Yes, they're all very happy, I'm very glad you're with us, Madam Harkens." He smiled. Sasha gave a nod and turned heading towards her new dressing room, "I'll be back!" "I'll be here." He sighed as soon as he- no.. She, was gone. He wished Grell was back. He tried all night last night to figure out how he could get him back, but he couldn't find anything.