it was a wednesday, it was cold. so i went to starbucks and got myself a latte. as soon as i got to the register i heard heels behind me, so i turned around. i couldn't believe my eyes. it was the most beautiful girl i'd ever seen. right in that moment, i didn't care how stupid it sounded, i wanted to know her.
at first, i was really nervous. i wanted to talk to her. but, how do you start a conversation with a girl who's beauty captivates you to the point you can't form a sentence? but somehow, i did. i asked her what her name was, and i said i'd never seen her around. but this is new york city, it's a big place with a lot of people. she said her name was stana katic and she was new to nyc, so that might be why. we hit it off right away. she complimented my outfit and i thought i was going to die right then and there. i asked her if we could sit down and talk while she drank her frappe, and ever so kindly she accepted.
a few minutes later she meets me at the table i'm sitting at. she turns towards me and says "so, i never got your name. how about we change that?" i laughed really nervously and she just smiled. oh and what a beautiful smile she has. i said "taylor, taylor swift." and she repeated my name, so soothingly. "your name is really pretty" she said. "like you.." i said. my heart stopped. what was i thinking? how could i let something like that slip so easily? i didn't know what to do. she must of known i was nervous, because she took her hand and placed it on mine, comfortingly. she was blushing. she smiled and said "don't be nervous, i think you are too." every emotion was going through my mind in that very moment. stana katic thought i was pretty? ME? no way. i was dreaming. but then i looked at her and realized, this is reality. this is really happening. something is finally going my way, and i liked it. i told her it meant a lot coming from her and she seemed confused. she said "but how?" i said "it just does." i told her i was going to be late for a job interview but it would be great to keep in touch. she gave me her number and we both went outside to our cars and drove away.
on the way to the interview, i felt this feeling. nothing like i'd ever felt before. a feeling of loss. why? who knows. but i got to the company, parked and went inside. i got to the receptionist's desk and told her i was here for an interview with mr. katic. wait? what. i am so stupid.. how did i not know? is this stanas husband? brother? dad? i can't believe this. i can't do this interview now, it's related to her. but as soon as i was about to go out the door, someone stopped me. i heard someone yell "taylor!" and i turned around and there she was. it was stana. the feeling went away. was it because i saw her? did i miss her? but that's impossible, i mean i've only known her for a short while. is there an explanation when it comes to love and fate? wait, what am i saying. i don't believe in fate and love at first sight and all that crap. but you know what you read in the books? that's what this feels like. maybe fate is real. maybe it's happening to me.
i turned around and greeted her. she laughed and said "ha! what a small world. welcome to my dad's company. i had no idea this is where your interview was." "yeah me neither." i said. i was upset and i think i portrayed it. i was upset because i knew i didn't have a chance with daddy's little girl. she was way out of my league and if i worked here i would have to see her everyday. she asked me "what's wrong?" i said "nothing." she said "oh okay but just to let you know i can basically guarantee that you get the job. that is, if you want it." and in a moment of weakness, i did it. i said yes. i told her i wanted the job. even if it caused me pain, i did it anyways. i had to know her.
