F.I.E.L.D

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He is trapped in a dark open field full of demented and undisclosed thoughts.

Lost in this so called field that he can't get out of and is so far from his destination he doesn't know we're to start. He is lost, doesn't know witch way to go to get to his destination. He wants to have that desire for someone to be with him. That feeling to be wanted or appreciated. He is frightened of the other over critical things watching his differences. That Nothing to believe in not even his own self. All he knows what to do is to start somewhere else, even though he has no intention or guidance to be able leave this (field) so he can reach the destination. The destination that can actually be the end or even just the begging. He is just to rove till he can find out the inner self of who this person could be or even accomplish. Not showing his true way or how he feels. This point he is past not knowing what to do. He is even more lost then he was at the start. He concedes cause he knows that it can't be accomplished, he is Fatigued from his head to to his feet like cold dirty water from a almost empty and weary bath tub. Thinking about surrendering but knowing that if he does there is nothing left. Blowing up everyone that ever has been in his presence. Fearing the unknown and what will happen next. Scared to believe in anything such has him, somebody else, or even his fate. He is shunned down of his goals and thoughts of the future. Acknowledging that he is not the perceptive or stunning as other may appear to be. Although he is not the most leading he knows that he doesn't need to be cause all he needs to be is to have that feeling of full internal gratification. He Gives out the hints that thou whom he sparks that internal sadness, that he wants someone to recognize and Change. I'm at a halt for that day to come to leave this f.i.e.l.d. To know were I stand or to be put so that I can have meaning in were I should be. And now you know who HE really is, I am the one written In these words you have looked apon in witch might be negative as you can see. But this is the feeling that no one can see but that you can now only read.