my mate - luke hemmings

Chapter 39

(Ok when I tell you to play "these four walls" by lil mix then play it to add more effect to the chapter and it helps u understand this chapter a bit more ;(~)

Nicole POV

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"Nicole come on there might be a chance we can still save him" nick said

So here we are at the pack hospital waiting for the doctor too tell us if he can save luke I stopped crying about a hours ago as we been waiting for 5 hours my eyes are red and puffy as most of the pack is here waiting to hear that there alpha is going to be ok the pain in my heart won't go away.. Most look at me with sadness but I ignore them i built walls up so I won't break down and cry as I did before I placed my hand on my heart as I thought about luke please goddess.. Please let him be ok the door opened as all heads turned to look at the pack doctor "he is on life support.."

There were gasp all around the room "there might be a chance he makes it..." hope shines in my eyes as I try to look past the doctor to see luke "you can see him Luna..." The doctor said as I looked in his eyes to see the sadness and the pity as I nodded and rushed to the room as a walked inside I froze as I looked at luke he looked peaceful.. He had wires attached to him as the monitor beeped he was all cleaned up with no more blood on him I walked towards his bed standing next to it as I held his hand in mine as all the walls broke down I fell too my knees crossing my arms on the bed still holding his hand laying my head into my arms and cried I heard the foot steps coming closer as I feel a hand on my shoulder I look up to find Calum Ashton and Michael in the room with sadness and tears in there eyes I wiped away my tears and stand up to bring them in a hug as we all cried "I'm sorry nicole"

Calum whispered as we all pulled apart "you didn't do anything Calum" I said softly he nodded "but I know how much pain you are in for losing your mate" I shake my head as a few tears went down my cheek "he is going to make it.. just you watch he is going to be ok.. He can't leave Calum he can't I need him" I croaked as more tears went down my cheeks Calum brought me into a hug as I cried

I sit in my chair besides lukes bed holding his hand as I look down at him my eyes are puffy and swollen from crying it's been a week and luke hasn't made any improvement as I brushed his hair to the side the door opens "nicole you haven't slept for hours" Nick said I shake my head "I don't need too" ignoring him as I just looked down at my mate as I can only hear the sounds of the beeps coming from the machine I look up at the wall to see 3 hours have passed as I looked outside it was dark I heard footsteps and the door opened I looked at the doctor Calum Michael Ashton and nick walk into the room as nick walks over to me an picks me up "what are you doing stop it"

I growled as he ignoring me and took me away from my mate as I wiggled around trying to get free Ashton comes over and helps pins me down I whimper "stop! What are you doing!" My eyes stung "I'm sorry Luna.." They all whispered as Calum and the doctor walked over to luke my eyes widen "no!" I screamed "what are you doing get away from him!" As tears went down my cheek "nicole.. he is on life support don't make him suffer.." Calum whispered to me "go ahead doctor" the doctor went closer to luke as my eyes widen "no!!" I screamed "please Calum please don't do this he is going to wake up please don't do this" I cried as his eyes got watery "please don't let him do this" I screamed to any one but no one listened as my eyes widen as the doctor took my mate off of the only thing keeping him alive as the machine stopped beating as my heart broke and the pain returned "no!" I screamed as nick and Ashton let go I fell to my knees sobbing "no" I whispered threw my tears as I rushed to lukes side holding his cold lifeless hand as I cried onto his chest "nicole it's time to let go.." I looked at my beautiful mates face and shake my head as I kiss his cold lips as my tears fall on his cheeks 'please come back to me' I whispered threw mind link to myself as I pulled away getting no reaction as the machine made a loud Beeeeeeeep sound my hand flew to my mouth as tears rushed down my cheeks as I shake my head backing away slowly as my back hits a wall "no!"

I screamed "no no no no!" I cried "I need you luke I need you!" I screamed "please don't leave me!" I screamed louder as I cried I ran out of the door passing pack members waiting in the halls as tears fell from my eyes I ran faster as my vision got blurry as I was in the woods I fell to my knees I screamed on the top of my lungs as tears flowed down my eyes I stayed like that for hours I finally got up and walked to the back house with tear stained cheeks and red puffy eyes as I walked into the pack house everyone stopped What they were doing and looked at me bowing "nicole I have dinner for you.." Bri said I shake my head as I walked up stairs to mine and lukes room (PLAY THE SONG "THESE FOUR WALLS" BY LIL MIX NOW) as I shut the door I lean my back against it as a few tears fell down my cheeks as I walked to his dresser and pulled out on of his shirts and put it on as I crawled into his side smelling his scent as tears dripped onto his pillow soaking it with my tears I won't say goodbye.. I cried silently what if I had one more night to say goodbye.. But still I would feel this pain I need you Luke.. I silently cried myself to sleep that night...

I woke up feeling numb as I got out of bed and walked to the bathroom I looked in the mirror and bit my lip as tears started to feel my eyes I saw a broken girl with tear stained cheeks and puffy eyes as I turn on the shower slowly taking off his shirt as I stepped under the shower hose I stared at the shower wall as more tears filled my eyes as flash backs of 4 days ago of me and Luke

'we just got out of the shower after making love and crawled into bed as I was getting ready to pull on a shirt luke wrapped his arms around me as his naked body pressed against me as he nuzzled his head against my neck I giggled as I feel him smiling against my neck as he starts sucking on my neck I moan I turn around to have his lips smashed against mine as the kiss got heated luke carried me to the bed as he made love to me for the second time that night I leaned over the bed to find one of his shirts and put it on as he growled playfully at me as he pulled me closer to his chest I giggled and turned around to face him to see his beautiful blue eyes I smile "I love you" I whisper to him he smiles "I love you too princess forever and always" he says as he kisses my nose as he pressed me closer to him holding my hand as the other was wrapped around me that night I fell asleep in my mates arms smiling"

I tried to hold back a sob as it slipped out I got out of the shower and got dressed in one of lukes shirts and a pair of shorts with vans as I walked out of the room and walked downstairs as I entered the kitchen all the talking stopped an everyone looked at me "how are you feeling?" Bri asked me as I looked around the room and noticed Calum Ashton Michael and nick gone I looked at bri and whispered "numb.." Tears instantly filled my eyes as bri hugged me I hugged back as I silently cried onto her shoulder as she held me closer "you smell different..." Bri croaked as I pulled away from her I noticed she been crying she wiped away my tears "it's probably lukes shirt your smelling.." I said as I started walking out of the room to go to mine and lukes room "do you want breakfast?"

I shook my head "I want to be alone..." I whispered as I went up to mine an lukes room I sat on the bed and hugged his pillow closer to me smelling his scent as I cried hours past as people came in and out of my room trying to get me to talk as I just cried silently into his pillow My stomach growled as I decided to get something to eat as I got up and walked down stairs to and sat down at the table for lunch with almost all the pack they all looked at me as a few made a funny faces at me and some told jokes to cheer me up I tried to smile but thought there was no point anyway.. So I faked a smile a plate was placed infront of me "thank you.." I whispered they nodded smiling sadly at me I stared at the food I lifted up my fork putting some food on it as I tried to eat the lump in my throat stopped me as I lowered my head I slammed my fork on the table as my hands squeezed into fist as tears fell from my eyes

I looked up and most people had tears in there eyes as I shook my head and ran upstairs and without thinking I ran to the roof that has a balcony I froze and walked to the balcony and looked down it was very high up I got onto the cement railing "luke.. I need you" I whispered as tears went down my cheeks 'I'm sorry' I mind link everyone in my pack that as I turned around facing the roof I looked at the door the leads to the roof I placed my hand on my heart "I'm sorry.." I whispered as the tears were rushing down my cheeks "im coming luke.." I whispered, I closed my eyes as I silently cried squeezing my eyes shut as I leaned back as I started Falling soon.. My pain will be over as I waited too feel the contact of the hard ground killing me but it never came instead I was caught in strong arms.. I opened my eyes slowly I was looking into those piercing blue eyes that I missed so much tears filled my eyes as they fell down my cheeks "luke..." I whispered as I cried