Jungkook always thought something was wrong but ignored it. Would he or the members Be able to realize what was wrong before it is too late?
Trigger warnings:
Depression
Mentions of abuse
Mentions of alcohol
Self harm
Might be mention of suicide
D...
All his life Jungkook was confused. He could not remember half his life. Was it normal? He was too scared to ask that question. Was he scared of their answer or their reaction? He did not know. He could not recall any memories from his childhood while the other members could make a never ending list about their favourite childhood memories. Jungkook could only hear them and feel a heavy weight in his chest and sickening sadness. He never understood why he felt that way and tried his best to ignore it.
Sometimes he felt immense sadness even though he was happy. He would be having fun with his hyungs but then he would feel so depressed even though he knew he was happy at that moment. He felt confused. It was normal to feel like this, right? Then why when he asked Hoseok about it he asked the younger if he was feeling depressed or if something was bothering him. He knew he was not depressed and that there was nothing bothering him, in fact, he had never felt happier in his life. He was achieving everything his young mind could ever even think of achieving. So why did he feel like that?
Sometimes he would wake up in random places. He would find himself in a bus, walking outside or at an arcade but he never remembered going to any of those places. Sometimes when he checked time he would discover that it was not the same day as he remembered last time. He would blackout for a whole day. But it was all normal, he convinced himself.
But was it really normal?
"I don't even know my own self, so who can know me?" - The Last, Suga
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A/N
So here's the kinda first chap of the story, I hope it's not too disappointing 😅 I'm not too happy with it but I really wanted to publish this story now so...
