Please Don't Go

So, hi. :) Ang tagal ko ng di nakapagsulat. T_T Sorry, tinatamad at marami kasing mga problema.  But I found time to write a short story, English short story. :) Click the external link for the girl's picture. ^^ At yea, ang boy na nasa side ay si Zeke / Eun Chang Hee. :D

I was used to see his bright smile. The way his lips formed a nice curve. It didn't matter, where, when or what misfortune he was experiencing; he always smiled. I could barely remember a time when he wasn't.

~*~*~*~

Raining.

It was difficult to tell which were falling faster: the raindrops from above or the tears painfully sliding down his face.

"Don't go.. Please don't go.." He took my hands, slightly squeezing it with his. His puffy eyes fixed on mine, making my stomach tie in knots of guilt and sorrow. I almost changed my mind. Almost.

“You can’t go.” He shook his head repeatedly.

I shut my eyes, close in an attempt to prevent myself from crying, but I failed, I totally failed.

“I have to… I need to..” I said quietly, my voice cracking.

He slowly licked his lips, moving closer to me. “Anio.” (No.) 

His hands moved to my face and he rubbed my cheeks with his palms, staring into my eyes. His eyes shifted back and forth, and I had to look away; I couldn’t stand seeing him like that.

He drew my face back toward his. I took a deep breath, putting my hands on top of his. I rubbed his hands softly, then shook my head. 

I have to leave now, or I may never go, I thought. 

Slowly, I pulled his hands away from my skin, dropping them by his sides. “Goodbye.” I told him. As I turned around, I told myself not to look back. I knew if I did, I would regret it forever. Still, something forced me to turn my head, and get a glimpse of him one last time.

Drenched in the rain, his hand reached forward to me. “Please? Don’t go.” He whispered, his voice cracking. Even through the rain I could see his aching eyes as they stared at me, begging for me to return to him. He looked helpless, and alone. I choked back tears, turning my head away as I ran in the opposite direction.

~*~*~*~

It had been almost five years since I had last seen Zeke, but his grin was still firmly planted in my memory. The longest, most painful years of my life had been in absence from him, and I could bear it no longer. I longed to see his smile, and was greatly looking forward to being able to do so. Returning from Italy was a big decision, but a simple one. 

I had to see him again.

I smiled to myself, as I stared out the window of the bus at the streets of Seoul, recognizing my old home. I took a deep breath, shutting my eyes. It was good to be back.

The bus slowly stopped, its doors opening. I gulped, and my heart skipped a beat. I could feel it racing, beating in my chest, and I took a deep breath, trying to calm myself. Carefully, I walked down the aisle of the bus, and stepped down, standing on the sidewalk. I looked up. In front of me stood the house of Eun Chang Hee.

After taking another deep breath, I bit my lip, adjusting my hair. I breathed out slowly, then took a confident step forward, heading toward his door.

This was it. I was finally going to see the man who gave me a reason to live. Thoughts raced through my head. What would he say when he saw me? What would he look like? Would he still be wearing the same dark clothing he seemed to favor in years before? I walked faster; I couldn’t take the anticipation.