rants and shit

S.E.D 1

well....

i dont really know what to say

i also dont know what to do

i did something bad (no, i didnt kill someone)

im making my parents doubt me and be sad about my fcking actions

i dont know what had gotten into me

and im really pissed that i did it

why did i have to say that?

i cant believe i said, "ayaw ko pa umuwi." when i know my mom is already tired

maybe its because i want to stay

maybe its because i cant tell her that i dont like it when she says some hurtful things about my idols

which are by the way kpop idols

theyare my inspiration and it hurts me when she says that

but i cant say that

itll count to fighting back to her

and i dont like that

fighting back against my parents or my grandparents is the worst thing that i could ever do

thats why i try to keep it all in and just let them say that

tho it hurts me

but i hate it when i answer in the wrong way which makes it seems i have no respect towards them

im sorry if im like that

it sucks

knowing you hurt your parents

i hate doing that

but why do i keep doing it?

i try to keep it all inside of me but why should i say that?

now we are kind of in the "no speaking" terms

and im in the middle of a fcking competition in both sports and journalism

dammit, why do i gave such 'good' timing with this...

fck it...