*Lizzy's pov*
I deserved a hundred cuts.
I stormed out of my room towards to the extra room we generally kept for guest but now it was basically my place where I hide my stuff ...nobody cames here after all .
There was only one word echoing in my ears
Cut. Cut. Cut. Cut . Cut . Cut ....
The words echoed of the walls giving me a headache .
You deserve it you'll have to , cant stop now .
Cut . Cut. Cut. Cut . Cut ...
Shut up . I hissed . My head proceeded to throb .
It's your mistake can't stop now ... a hundred for whatever you did . My panic attacks had started again and Harper was getting a boyfriend . I mean yeah I'm bisexual and I kind of liked Harper ...no I loved Harper and now Alex willams is becoming a problem on my love life . And just for the very same reason . I have had cut myself a thousand of times
I stormed towards the closet and opened my wooden box . I had been clean for almost 2 weeks but now . I broke .
A hundered that's it ,no less ... slash it..
I brought my blade down to my wrist and started sliding the blade across my wrist .
My hands trembled waith fear as heat started building up behind my eye .
1...slash . Blood trickled down ...too much ...but too less .
I walked towards my closet and took a safety pin out . One was already done ninety nine more to go .
2..slash . The safety pin scraped my skin but did deep enough to bring out blood
3...4...5...6...7...8...9.....40
Till forty cuts the flesh was red and older cuts were flashed crimson red .
41...42..43..44..45..46..80
Ah....still not enough blood. .how about we do 365 for you worst year. .....For every day you loved Harper .....it's always your mistake.
You have to be punished . More ...more ...more
The voice started screaming in my head as I put the pin down to my wrist .. I inhaled and started cuting pressing the pin more into my skin .
Small dots of blood started flowing down .
Cold and red . A tear dripped down my cheek and dropped on my self inflicted wrists . I winced and groaned in pain . I bit my lip to muffle my voice .
I increased my speed and continued counting without giving any other thoughts. The blood was smeared all over my wrists and I was shivering .
How much will you hide.. pain is what you'll feel .
365
Done ... my left hand was crimson red and few drops of blood dropped on the carpet .
I dropped on my knees and smiled like a mad man . I don't hurt other but my-myself ... Blood that's what I need .
She's a mad man ... next time well do 365×16 . You'll be sorry for every day you lived everyday hurt hide ....just with a smile. The cold ...remember it the blood feel it . End this all of it right ...now.
I grinned even more. it was painful but it was satisfying . Satisfying in a weird way, in a way one cannot describe . Just then the door opened and Harper walked inside .
"Girl you should hear me ... I was screaming about you ...L-Liz . What did you do "
Tears strated dripping down from her eyes and I scrambled towards the wall . Harper slowly crawled towards me placed her hand on my cheeks .
"Why?"
She croaked in a weak voice an I groaned out of pain . Her hands engulfed me ,hugging me . I cried on the crook of her neck ...sobbed uncontrollably until her t-shirt was drenched in blood and tears . She carefully removed my hands from her back and took a hankercheif out of her pocket and wiped the blood . My eyes were puffy from crying . Under the layer of blood there was buring skin and few old scars . Her eyes widened and she ran to the washroom to get bangades . Her face of neutral the whole time and nor did I utter a single word . I was sorry for what I had done but was not able to show my views .
