Meant to be ~

Chapter 1

There were nights when I felt more alone than usual, nights when my thoughts turned to Konoha. In recent weeks this was something that happened repeatedly. Sometimes, I went to look at the stars to think clearly, but that only made things worse. I was sure of the decision I had made ... at least I thought so.

- Yes. - I said to myself.

I knew very well what I had to do, but I couldn't help feeling great pain in my chest when I thought about the cost of it.

- Forget it Sasuke. - I repeated many times.

Leaving the village, was without a doubt, one of the most difficult things I had done in a long time, there was my life ... my friends, although few, considered my family ... team seven.

However, I had to be honest with myself, I had no future. My place was not there as much as I wanted it, for a while, I almost convinced myself that it was, but only a fool would insist on a lie.

Although I had that in mind, the first months with Orochimaru were the cruelest for me. I couldn't see Orochimaru or Kabuto in the eyes, I hated them, just like the rest of my classmates. At night, after training, I used to sneak outside, so I could be alone. This was something that bothered Orochimaru a lot, first because of my lack of enthusiasm and second because I was a person who was being persecuted and I was exposed my skin in that way. 

Of course, none of that mattered to me. I knew that if they found me they would not make me come back... or would they? Tsk, damn it. Again and again, my mind played bad tricks on me. That's how I was for a good time, until ...-

That night was the worst. Orochimaru told me about how Naruto and Sakura had come to the den to find me, how they had come so far, with such determination. Why do this for me? I had made things quite clear with Naruto, I had been blunt and did not give in to his attempts to convince me ... despite having left him unconscious, there he was again; He was always an insistent person.

There was also another detail, which caught my attention too much, I couldn't help thinking about Sakura. How was that possible? Maybe she was just following Naruto's whims. I understood that she felt a very strong bond for me, but ... I thought that over time and after seeing my determination she would give up on me. After all, I had abandoned her with a word of thanks. I couldn't match her feelings, not at that moment. With the passage of time, united by team seven, Sakura and I were getting closer and closer. We understood each other without even talking to each other and we had risked our own lives for the other's, so strong was our bond. Of course I had risked for Naruto too, after all ... he was my only friend. But those links needed to be cut.

Tsk, even so, inside me flowed various feelings. I couldn't match Sakura's feelings, but deep down I knew they reached my heart, I was grateful for them and that night, more than any other, they roamed my mind like sharp knives.

Strong heat waves hit my chest again and again, I couldn't, even if I tried to resist it. I ran as far as I could from that place, leaving Orochimaru in doubt.

I wanted ... even if only once, go see her. I needed to see her. I was clear that I could not speak to her and I convinced myself that it was normal to want to feel that way in the situation I was in, I had cut all ties; It was normal to feel more alone than usual. However, my body did not listen to my mind, so when I realized I was on my way to Konoha.

While I was going there, my body stopped, finally my thoughts connected with my actions, what I was doing was meaningless. I stopped in a clearing on the outskirts of Konoha, facing a lake. I could still feel the fire running through my chest, but I was trying to calm down, I needed to be objective, I had made this decision myself and nothing I did could go back in time.