Trial & Error

23

"Colby come cuddle with me.." Becky whined as her body relaxed into his large bed.

"Give me a second babe." Seth said as he walked out of the bathroom. Her eyes scanned his body that was only covered by a pair of boxers. He turned to walk into his closet before her words stopped him.

"If you think you need to wear more than that you're insane.." He turned around and eyed her.

"You sure?" She eyed him like he was insane. "Alrighty then.." He said before he flicked off the bedroom light. As he crawled into the bed next to her she turned the tv on.

"So you're the one that's been using my Netflix..." She said as she noticed his tv was logged into her account.

"In my defense you signed in while you were here one day.." He said as his lips met the top of her head. As she flicked through the movies his arm wound around her waist before she was pulled into him. He couldn't help but notice the fact that the only thing she was wearing was one of his large shirts. His fingertips began to stray lightly along her thigh as her body curled into his. "Watch whatever you want to Love." He said softly as he pulled the comforter higher along their bodies.

Seth leaned back against the pillows gently bringing her with him. Becky's head moved to rest lightly along his chest before her lips brushed his skin. She put on a random movie that she knew the two would disregard, before she set the remote on the nightstand. Her hand moved to rest along his stomach before her fingertips slowly began to move.

The two instantly became more than aware of the fact that it had been years since they had this little clothing between them. His hand slipped beneath her shirt before his fingers began to trail along her bare side. It was at that moment that he couldn't help but notice she had no bra on.

"Colby..." Her voice was shaky as his fingertips trailed along her ribs.

"S-Sorry." He stuttered before his hand moved from beneath her shirt.

"You don't have to stop." She said before her lips crashed into his. Her fingers threaded behind his neck before he was pulled over her. One of his hands moved to hold himself up as the other moved beneath her shirt before resting along her hip. Her teeth bit along his lower lip before he instantly allowed her access. Though he was over her, he always gave her full control over everything.

Becky shirt was lifted as his hand moved higher along her body. His lips separated from hers before they slowly began to trail along her jaw. Ever so gently he began to suck along a spot that he knew was one of her old weak points along her neck. Seth immediately earned a breathless moan from the redhead.

It was at that moment that she started to feel trapped. His body became heavier on hers. His hand pressed her more into the mattress. His head unmoving as his lips continued to work on her neck.

"Colby stop.." His hand continued to move higher as he didn't hear her words. He bit down harshly on her neck before his lips moved lower. "Colby." Her words were louder but he still ignored her plea for him to stop. His hand was just below her breast as her breathing began to speed up. His fingers began to clamp down as he held her now squirming body down.

"Colby!" Her panicked words still weren't enough to get his attention. Her hands grabbed at his hair trying to pull him away from her but he was unmoving. It was almost like he wasn't there. "Colby!" She screamed before his head snapped up. As his eyes met hers she saw his large and dark pupils begin to fade to his normal soft brown.

"I-I-I.." He stuttered as he quickly separated from her. Seth moved to lay on his back before Becky quickly turned and buried her face into his chest. "I'm sorry Bex." He whispered as his hand moved to run along her spine.

She was silent for the longest time as she tried to regain her breath. She was insanely claustrophobic and his body unmoving as she had an attack did nothing to help. As he heard her breathing begin to normalize his arms loosely draped around her.

"I'm so sorry Love. I-I didn't hear you.." She was quiet as she tried to find words.

"What the fuck happened? You weren't fucking there.." He looked at her completely confused. "You've never done that before. You got aggressive and lost control of yourself Colby. I-I couldn't fucking breath and you wouldn't move." There were tears forming in her eyes as his heart shattered. He sucked in a slow breath as he tried to form words to apologize.

"I-I don't know what happened Red. I-I won't do it again Love. I'm so fucking sorry." He said as his lips pressed to the top of her head. She nodded as a sigh left her lips she still didn't understand what caused him to lose control. He carefully turned on his side before he was eye level with her. "There have been times where I've blacked out." He began hesitantly.

"And what causes it?" He took a deep breath.

"I don't know that's the thing. It's happened ever since I tried to kill myself." Those words still pained her to this day. "I just, I black out, get into a fight or two and then wake up the next morning. I don't know what brings them on nor do I know how to stop them.." She nodded as her arms wound around his neck. Slowly his face buried into her neck. "I'm sorry Love."

"Stop apologizing Colby. We'll find a way to get through this." She said softly as she felt his arms wind around her waist. "We're both fucked up in our own ways Love." He responded to her words quietly.

"But we know how to fix each other."