Angivan

Tragedy

In evening I get news that he in hospital and he feels so bad. I was shocked cause reason was more serious than he told me. He usually says his chest hurts but I thought its some past problems. But reason was his serious ilness. After some days he said goodbye dont let me to come to hospital and he give to his friend pasword for reach me if something bad will happens.  After 2 days we all saw post with candle and words which killed me forever. I could not believe he gone that person was so weird ak his friend. I was suspicious but the pain which I felt and lost which killed me its no words for explain it. First days I back to work I took 2 works for be busy and don't think other people said I should move on. I was so angry and sad I believe he will back. I had dreams weird dreams visited psychologist some doctors then church. I pray and every night asked God how I don't want wake uo but again I woke up anf back to work with black outfits everyday I did not laugh I just cry every time when I back to home I knew I will cry cry cry and cry. But after I started search mutual friends which work in hospital I tried to get information from police. I tried to connection organisation in my country whcih search lost relatives. I tried everything. I was ready to take vacation and fly but it was to late my boss was mad and work could not give me vacation only in summer so I decited to collect more money and go in summer to his family and cementary. I was sure then I will find peace.