Letters to Nobody

Laura

Hey Laura...

Remember back when we first met? It was the first week of Summerbreak. 1st of July, to be exact. We became roommates. Friends. In that one week together, we even became as close as family.
Remember how much we laughed? When we washed our hair in the sink because the line for the shower's was too long. When Bonne woke us up in his baby outfit. When we hid from the leafblower.
Remember how we supported eachother? When you managed to hurt your ribs. When I told you about the constant fight's with my boyfriend. When you told me about your home. When we didn't want to be alone in the dark.
Remember when we cried? When we had to say goodbye. Not knowing how long it would take for us to see eachother again after that week.
Remember those first few weeks after? When we texted, daily. When we called. When we were planning to hang out again.

You do, don't you?
Because I do.
Because I cared.

So, what went wrong? Perfect friendship, right?

I remember your birthday. You came running to me and I hugged the shit out of you. My joy was unbelievably great. I enjoyed that evening. I enjoyed spending it with you. After all the drama and heartbreaks of the Summer, I really enjoyed a friendly face like yours.
When we invited you to come to Katuit, you lit right up. Immediately asking your mother if you could come. You could, if you had a place to spend the night. Sleepover at my place!
The evening before, we called. We chatted almost through the night. I told you about my crush, I told you my secrets and caught you up on who you would meet. The excitement made you glow up! It was so amazing.

Had I known how that evening would change us that much, I would never have asked you to come over.

All of our promises. All of our hopes and dreams together. Thrown out over a guy. How did we end up like that, Laura?

I'm not mad he fell for you. I was hurt. Of course I was. I was in love with him for over a year and he didn't like me that way, while you show up for one evening and immediately put him under your spell. I'm not mad that you went after him. I'm hurt, you threw away your relationship for someone you barely even knew. I'm not mad you haven't talked to me ever since that day. I'm hurt you dropped me for a guy.
You know I'm right. Since that night, you haven't texted me. Haven't called me. Never even checked in. No, you did. Once. That's when you lied.
Your charger was still at my place so U was gonna drop it off at your place but you couldn't have friends over because you were at your dad's, right? And you couldn't go out either, right? But when I talked to Jasper, he told me you were going to meet him. On a date.

That's where I drew the line.

I know, you think I'm overreacting. You didn't want the drama and you didn't want to hurt me. Little did you know that you actually hurt me even more by not talking to me at all.

But that's how life is, right?
You care.
You get hurt.
You stop caring.
But eventually, you repeat the cycle.

Thanks for the memories.

Scarlet.