Past Mistake

*Chapter 3*: Lies

Rachel spent Saturday with Finn to appease him—meaning she sat around doing homework while he played some violent video game that made her cringe.

She was sad to say that it was something he never grew out of.

By the time Monday rolled around, she had done a lot of planning and had started making detailed charts and notes about the upcoming school year. Those charts and notes were currently hidden away under her bed, in the box with her diary; she didn't need someone seeing them and thinking she was crazy, but she also needed them to be somewhere she'd find them if she happened to go back to her future.

Over the weekend, she was getting increasingly paranoid that she would blink and be back in her twenty-nine year old life. It was one of the reasons for the meticulously details charts and notes. It was a map for the next year so even if she somehow went back, she hoped her younger self would find it and follow through with changing everything.

Or she'd just think someone crazy person with her handwriting had broken into her room.
In the box was also her theories for how she was here—which currently consisted of a blank piece of paper with the words 'theories for how I'm here' written on the top.

She had been so focused on coming up with ways to change everything, that she hadn't really had the time to stop and think about how she got here. She figured it obviously had something to do with that wish, but how it had happened was still a mystery that she hadn't had time to dwell on.

"Rachel, Finn's here!"

Rachel sighed; he was the problem she was currently focused on. She hoped that if she ignored him, he would get mad about it and eventually break up with her and he'd get to keep some of his dignity. It was backfiring, though. The more she tried to ignore him, the more he called and the needier he became.

As annoying as it was, she decided she was going to hang in there and wait for him to break up with her. She didn't even really know why she was doing it, but some part of her really didn't want to hurt his younger self.

Mostly she didn't want the guilt if breaking his heart adversely affected his future.

"Are you coming?" Finn was standing at the door and Rachel realized she had zoned out.

"Yeah, just let me get my bag," Rachel said, grabbing it off her bed.

The ride was silent and Finn held her hand the whole way, only stopping when they got out of the truck. Rachel tried to walk ahead of him, but he caught up and took her hand, smiling at her.
Her plan of avoiding and ignoring him was failing spectacularly.

"Hello you two," Kurt said as Rachel and Finn walked by his locker. Rachel smiled.

"Hello, Kurt."

Finn leaned down and kissed Rachel's cheek.

"Sorry, Rach, but I have to talk to Coach Beiste. I'll see you at lunch?" Rachel nodded and Finn gave her a quick kiss on the lips; she frowned at him as he pulled away.

As soon as Finn rounded the corner and was out of sight, Kurt turned and eyed Rachel.

"Are you okay?"

"Yes," Rachel said, shrugging her right shoulder.

"Is there a reason you think something is wrong?"

"You're been a little—" Kurt frowned slightly, pausing to think. "—off. Plus, Finn came to my room last night asking if I knew why you're mad at him."

""I'm not mad at him," Rachel replied, averting her eyes. "I just—" She shook her head. "It's kind of difficult to explain."

"Come on." Kurt grabbed her hand and dragged her down the hall.