Summer Lust

1.1.

„Kate!" I heard my coworker Joana shouting while getting close to my small office.

„Yes?" I answered very quickly, partly knowing what she will say next.

„Edd needs you to come in his office in about five minutes."

A slight grin slipped on her lips. She looked pleased. That cocky bitch! Soon enough, she exited my office.

I stood up from my chair and started to walk in my small office nervously. So this is it. My first job and now I will get fired. How will I pay rent? Car debt? Save money for college? All this money related things came to my mind. It was too overwhelming. I suddenly felt an urge to cry. Put yourself together. You have been through worse. Who knows, maybe he will just yell at you. I don't care if he does. Maybe if I ask him for another chance to promise to work extra hours or something else I don't know. I simply can't afford to lose my job right now.
So with all this in my head, I stoped pulled my shirt down to straighten it out and decided to go to see Edd. My worried face was soon replaced with confidence. I needed to show that I am no crybaby and that I can handle things as a real grown up. I walked through the big corridor and pressed the elevator button. My anxiety skyrocketed in that moment. After waiting a while for the elevator my hands started to sweat.

When the doors opened I was greeted by Anna. She was a few years older than me, but always sweet and kind towards everybody not like Joana.

While stepping in she asked me: „going up?"
„Yeah I am going to see Edd." My face dropped to the flour. But still not trying to give away anything.

There was a moment of silence, then she turned to me and said: „Heard what happened! Men are perverts! They think that they are allowed to do everything! Joana told me that you slapped him and screamed at him in front of everybody. It that true?"

I felt a bit embarrassed. „Well now that I think about it maybe I shouldn't have done it."

„The only thing you should regret is not slapping him harder! If that was me, I would smack the hell out of him!" she started to laugh.

The doors opened and I walked out. She was still laughing out loud. As a walked towards his office, I noticed few people staring at me. It was very unpleasant. Put my hand in a fist and knocked on brown heavy doors. Grabbing a knob and twisting it, I walked in.
„Here you are! I have been waiting for you for a while. What took you so long?" he said with anger on his dark face.
Edd was one of the most important people in this building. He decided on a lot of things. Mostly hearing and firing people. He hired me so now he will fire me. this is funny. He was sitting in his leather chair.

„I apologize! I came as soon as possible."

„So today you decided to slap companies possible future partner! Is that right? And not only that you shouted in front of everybody that he is a sick idiot who needs to keep his filthy hands to himself! Is that right?"

His eyebrows were raising. His voice echoed through the room. My confidence was replaced by fear and anxiety. I crossed my arms in front of me trying not to cry. I hated the fact that I have many overreacted to the whole situation and that it will cost me my miserable job.

He stood up, Put his fists on the edges of the table, slouched a bit and took a deep breath.
„Can you explain to me what happened there?"

I tried to put sentences together in my mind. It took me a few seconds.
„Before the meeting he was very rude to me. He was saying very offensive words about my job to put it mildly. I was quiet the whole time I wasn't disrespectful. Then when the meeting had begun and everybody had their fair share of the wine he suddenly grabbed my behind and forced me to sit in his lap. Nobody said a word they all started to laugh but it wasn't funny for me at all. So I did what I had to do to free myself from his grip. That's all. I think that his behavior was out of line. I am sorry for everything and please don't fire me, I need this job."

His eyes softened a bit. He nodded and started walking in his office without saying a word to me. After a minute he stopped, looked me in eyes and said: "I think that you did the right thing, but although he isn't our partner yet he has the power here. I will be honest and I won't keep you waiting any longer. You are fired. I'm sorry."

I was in disbelief. The worst thing had happened. I was fired. Suddenly I started to cry. He turned around and handed me a tissue.
„Here you go."

I wiped my tears. I felt so powerless in that moment. just couldn't believe this was happening to me in the worst possible moment. It can't be real. Why this sort of shit happened always to me. I can't take another disappointment.

„Wish I hadn't done it. Is there any possibility I can keep my job. I will do anything. I will even apologize to him if that is what it takes for me to keep this job. Please. I really need this. I can't be without a job right now."

He approached me and put his hand on my arm. „There is nothing that I can do. The orders came from above. There is really nothing I can do. Go get your things and leave. We will solve all the papers and give you your last full paycheck. I suppose you will receive that money before the end of the month. You are a bright young woman and I have no doubts that you will find another good job quickly."

„Thank you for everything." I wiped the rest of my tears and exited.

Now everybody was staring at me. I put my head down and started to walk faster towards the fire exit. There was no one in the corridor. I hit the wall with my back. It hurted as hell. my knees were week I dropped to the floor. it took me about half an hour to get myself in order. Went down to my office. Grabbed a box and in a hurry, put all my belongings in it. Before I exited I took a chance to look one last time. I was lost.

Before I walked out Joana stopped me. this time I didn't hide my expression. I was angry. She gave me a pity hug.
„We are all so sad that we won't see you here anymore." She was mocking me.
And with my whole honesty, I answered: „Actually I am not sad because I won't have to see you again"
Her face changed completely. It was hilarious.
„Good luck with finding another job!"
„At least I won't have to suck nobody's dick to keep it!" and that was it. Now I was unemployed and officially broke.

I have finally arrived to my small apartment that I shared with my friend Emma. Thank god she was not home. I didn't have the energy to explain her the whole thing. Dropped my things in the corner. There was a sharp sound of glass breaking. I kneeled down to see my family photo in peaces. The pieces that you can't put together anymore. This year was the saddest in my life so far. I have reached the bottom. I was far from my parents without Jake all alone with nothing to hold on to. I hit the bottom. I took the photo out and walked to my bed, putting the photo above my heart. How have I got here. Oh, I remember. Let's start from the beginning.

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