Bleeding Scars (Pt:1)
Tez's P.O.V
Starring down at the blade I held in my hand, I thought to myself. Should I do this? This would be the the 7th time today I place a blade to my skin.
I never tell anyone I do this, because I know they're going to automatically say, "Oh you're emo?", or "OMG you're suicidal!"
Like, no you stupid dickface, no I'm not suicidal, fuck you..
Jeez I need help.
I always have negative thoughts, no matter what happens and I can't stand it. I cut because, believe it or not, I like the feeling. It makes me feel better.
Focusing back on reality I look down at my thighs and torso and I see blood dripping slowly to the floor.
I sigh and throw away the blade and I clean off my cuts. They stung because I used alcohol right after I cleaned them. I did this so that my dad wouldn't be in my face.
My mom died...she was killed...well murdered by my own father.
I hate him.
If I had a choice to bring her back and to make him take her place, I would pick that choice in an instant. After she died all hell broke loose...and I mean that literally.
He beats on me and treats me like shit.
My ex-girlfriend committed suicide by hanging herself.
My brother jumped off a bridge and he drowned.
My grandma died of unknown causes.
My older brother died in the military.
My sister.....My sister also committed suicide because she was tired of our dad beating us. I wish I could get him back. I thought to myself.
It's Friday so I knew Dad was going to come home drunk.. and I knew he was going to do something to me like he always did.
He would beat me senseless then he....he would touch me in inappropriate places. He'd knock me out and the next thing I knew he was raping me. That happened when I was 10..I'm 19 now.
My eyes glanced at the clock. "10:15" I say to myself. Fuck. I hear a car door slam and I knew he was going to beat me. I ran upstairs and hid, hoping he wouldn't find me.
I held my breathe and I began hearing deep groans coming from the kitchen. Then I start to hear loud and large footsteps crawling closer and closer to my room. I lay under my bed as I heard him approach my door.
Holding my breath I prayed to the heavens that he wouldn't come to my room. But without hesitation he flung through my door and I heard his breath.
"Tezifer, where are you boy?" His country account sounded terrible when he said my name.
I continued to hold my breath, still hoping he didn't hear me. I could here him rustling through my extremely messy bed.
"Tezi, where are you my beautiful child?"
I heard him say like he was turned on or some shit.
The fuck? Hell no, there's no way in hell that he's gonna try to rape me, because it not gonna happen.
I saw his feet quietly standing in front of my bed and I saw him kneel down. I immediately covered my mouth as soon as I saw his hand reaching under my bed.
No! No! No! I scream in my head.
Right when I felt his disgusting hands on my leg. I heard a loud bang...
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Authors Note: Hello
First chapter of my BxB One Shots series I'm going to be doing a lot of these. Any suggestions leave them in the comments. Thank you everyone for reading and I'll see you guys in the next chapter, Good Bye Everyone!
