I Don't Even Know

I Guess This Is My Intro

This Used To Be A Book But I Deleted It Instead Of Unpublishing It So This Is Gonna Be My Journal Again I Guess.

Hi I Hate Myself. But People Dont Seem To Understand What I Mean When I Say That. I Dont Hate My Hands. I dont Hate My Skin Color(Sometimes) But I Do Very Much Hate What's On The Outside. I Guess I'm Trans And Even Though I Say I Guess, I Know I Am But Putting Another Word That Means Maybe In Front Makes It Easier To Say.

I'm In Highschool(Which Sucks Balls). I Live In Ohio Which Is The Greatest State To Ever Exsist Come At Me California I Will Fuck Yo Shit Up.

A Couple Of Years Ago I Go Kicked Out Of My School For Reasons I Will Probably Reveal Later, But That Seriously Changed My Life. I Grew Up In One Part Of Town Seeing The Same People Since 1st Grade. I Had Basically Got An Image Of What I Pressumed Life Was Like For Everybody. Okay I'm Not Tryna Be Racist But There Werent A Lot Of White People At Our School And In 7th there Was Only 2. One Was Autistic One Yelled At People A Lot, Only When She Was In A Bad Mood Tho. But She Was In A Bad Mood A Lot. She Was My Best Friend But Yah Know A Pretty Crappy One She Made Me Feel Like Shit A Lot.

But Now I'm In This New School In A Unclassifiably White Part Of Town And Its Like Wow. All The Movies Werent Lying. Also Aparently Trick Or Treating Is An Actually Thing... Anyway I Went To School With These New Kids. When They First Saw Me They Either Treated Me Like I Was Dumb Or Scary. Others Were Nice Tho. And I Only Got Suspended Twice That Year. For Some Reasom Even Now People Think I'm Going To Shoot Up The School. They Never Actually Say It But They Heavily Aplly It.

Anyway A Year Later And 3 Weeks Im In Highschool; Freshman. Yeah Its Been 3 Weeks Of School But More Like Two Cause The First Two Weeks Were Only A Couple Of Days. This Week I'm Going To Try An Join A Few Clubs. I Have My Life Semi Together Now. It Feels Good But, I'm Always Going To Think What If... Like I've Made So Many Bad Choices And Im Just Waiting For My Walls To Collapse So I Can Restructer Myself Again.

Anyway I'm Not Gonna Say My Name Until I Decide What I Want To Be Called But Have A Good Day Guys.