Stepbrothers {myg+pjm}

𝐈𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐝𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭

{play- singularity by V}

In the next week of school I would follow him around, sometimes discreetly sometimes not. I wanted to keep him safe at all costs and also see if he was eating all right.

-Yoongi! This is excellent! You've improved a lot. Your grades are amazing!- the teacher flashes me an energetic smile and hands me my test only for me to see that I had an A.

My jaw dropped to the floor. I was in pure shock. I looked around to see if anyone would be as shocked as I was but the only thing I saw was jimin smiling happily and punching his fists to the air with a "fighting!".
Adorable. Completely adorable. Jimin was breaking my walls. He was breaking the walls I built around my heart and he was making me soft. I was and still am deeply in love.

When I first saw him... I felt anger. Anger only. Now I feel more than that. He showed me more than that. Not exactly with words... but with actions.

I'm still scared that I'll hurt him.

If I do... I'll never forgive myself.

I waited for the bells to ring and walked out of the class room with jimin.

-You did so good yoon...- he uses the cute nickname in fear that I'd be mad at it. BUT IT WAS THE OPPOSITE. That made my stomach make a whole turn.

My arm moved unconsciously to his waist and we walked out of the school.
I glanced at him and saw his cheeks turning pink and him biting his full bottom lip.

We were heading home and he had still not moved away from my embrace. Does he like this? Maybe I'll do it more often.

My mind started flying away. Jumping from thought to thought.

Ahh.. I still didn't get time to think about Vernon. That asshole really really really hurt me bad. Even tho all I felt for him was a crush... and it was all going away, it... still hurt me some kind of way. I felt like a toy.
A toy he was using to play with and complete a bet.
THE problem was that, everything he had done for me ,or to me, or with me, literally everything, felt real. And then it was like the mask he had been carrying around fell down.

I don't like being used. I hate being played with. I hate being lied to.

At least he taught me something. He taught me I can never trust anyone.

I trusted my father and he screwed me up. He really fucked me up. I was so mentally fucked because of him. He ruined my childhood.

I trusted Vernon and he showed me how much of a shit he was and used me.

I trusted woosung, an apparently nice guy of the team and he beat jimin up and bullied him.

I trusted hoseok and he is now almost forcing me to be with him. He is breaking me without realizing and I can't really blame him. Can I?

And now I trust no one. No one but jimin. And I wish from the bottom of my heart that he won't betray my trust. I'm giving him my all. I can't risk losing it for someone who will play with it.

-Yoon...- I heard him call, snapping me out of my thoughts.- Open the door?

-hum.. right I'm sorry.- I open the door and I'm not impressed when I see that the house is empty. Now my mom is never home.

I realized how much my life changed.

I'm no longer using sex as a scape from the reality.
I have.. not a stepbrother but a new friend.
I'm falling in love. With him. Really hard.
My mom is almost like out of my life, ignoring me to be with her boyfriend. All the time.
I'm not jealous I just miss her.
My grades are getting really good.