How could I be so stupid? honestly I thought I could go out and let loose, but i let my brain shut down I let my guard down and now? I'm crying in a dark alley next to a busted up dumpster and a brick wall/
I'ts cold ,dark and quiet all except for the muted noises of the city.
Im alone, although i wanted to start off this night with hanging out with everyone. Now i just want to hide from the world i don't want to face anyone. maybe theres even a part of me that want to............die and the urdge grows bigger and bigger by the second the part of me that wants to refuse grows smaller and smaller.
"Come on maka you've been in the shower for hours"! soul bangs on the bathroom door.
normally i would have jumped and yelled , but i couldn't bring myself to do it this morning. My head slowly rolls to the side to face the door, but still no expression on my face. "Okay soul". i didn't hear him say another word, so i know he's confused,because like i said i probably would have yelled. I don't want him to be worried. i feel so discusted i just want to stay in the shower as long as i can but nothing can help that though. Not enough soap and hott water can help . All the energy is gone from me. I couldn't muster anything, so I simply turned the shower off and quiclky butt quietly got out the shower . I look at myslef with discust. i trun away and put on my bra and underwear followed by a pair of gray sweats and a sweatshirt i brushed my hair and then looked in the mirror I noticed the large blue sweatshirt that hung off my small frame was Souls , he has a girlfreind but ............i just pull the blue fabric over my shoulder Everything is still sore..... i flicker my eyes away from the mirror and proceed to leave the bathroom keeping my head held low im almost to the living room until....until someone grabs my arm everything from last night came back to me ,and I began screaming.
--soul--
what the hell is wrong with maka? Did something happen last night? I know she went out with the girls last night. I was sleep before she came home last night and his morning shes been more distant. I see maka exit the bathroom. she walkto the living room i follow her its like she doesn't even register that she walked past me, and that scares me. I grabbed her arm to stop her and she just flips out!
STOP! STOP IT! NO! NO! PLEASE NO! she starts screaming crying,and fighting to get out of my grip
now i know something happened last night MAKA! STOP! M-MAKA! I grab both of her shoulders when she faces me ,and grip them tightly her eyes are squezzed tightly shut she is still fighting MAKA STOP! OPEN YOUR EYES ITS ME SOUL! S-soul shes still fighting then she calms down as i hug her and run my fingers through her hair I pick her up and sitt on the couch as she sits sideways on my lap.
ITS ALL MY FAULT IM SO SORRY! She begins to cry on my chest.
Maka what happened last night i try to put all the anger built up inside of me away
