chamomile and sunshine

sick

sick and disgusting

i am nothing but sick and disgusting

a broken mold, a cracked lens

broken and used

i am covered in scars

on my skin and underneath

i build myself up to burn it all down to ash

i have a broken smile, the kind of smile that people avoid

i have seen the good and the bad

i've seen evil

i've seen people desert everything they love because theyre scared

i am broken

i am beaten

i am mistreated

i am torn

i am sick

i am disgusting

father i don't wanna be sick and disgusting.

mother i don't wanna be sick and disgusting.

god i don't wanna be sick and disgusting.

but that's all ill ever be.

sick

i take medication to fix it.

but its like walking on the bottom of the ocean

carrying the weight of the world

its just a screen, over my real self.

father i don't wanna be sick and disgusting.

mother i don't wanna be sick and disgusting.

god i don't wanna be sick and disgusting.