i hate you (hayes grier)

CHAPTER FIVE

We arrived at my house. I was really excited. It seems surreal because I've never had a makeover before and I'm so happy. 

My phone screen lit up saying i have messages. I have a flip phone.(A.N lets just say iphones weren't invented yet okay? Okay)

I opened my messages and .  The first message was from Sarah.

Sarah: Your worthless

I laughed.

Hayes:Go kill yourself...

I started tearing up.

There was more but i never opened it.

I was laying on my bed crying. I remembered the pills that I still had. I'm just so tired already.

I got out off my bed and walked to my bathroom after grabbing the pills out of my bag. I wrote a letter to my sister and parents real quick and left it on my bed.

I went to the bathroom and looked at myself one last time. I looked at myself and just started whispering things i don't like about myself. One cut for each imperfection.

I'm worthess , one cut.
I have acne , one cut.
I'm fat , one cut.
I have glasses... ugly ones, one cut, 
And im not perfect , one long cut.

I listed about 10 other things.

After I did that I decided to do everyone a favor and take the pills. I grabbed my laptop and pressed record.

"Hey everyone" I said to the camera waving. My eyes were bloodshot by now.

"So I have these sleeping pills and I decided to do everyone a favor and take them." At this point I was full on crying.

"If you say I'm doing this for attention I swear I'm not. I've been bullied since elementary school. Why? Because i made one mistake!" I decided to tell my pathetic story.

"One day me and my 2 ex best friends were playing a game off T or D and Sarah Blackson dared me to kiss Hayes Grier i said no. Hayes got sad and I guess he was heartbroken over that stupid word .. So ever since that day I've been bullied by Sarah and Hayes and a bunch of other people... because he was the true baby about it."

"Okay well bye guys!" I smiled and kept the camera recording. I took 9 pills and instantly everything went black.