Someday
someday someone's gonna love me ~
napaka gandang kanta naman nito sana may magmahal na nga sakin ... pero sino nga ba ?? eh kahit sa pamilya ko hindi ko maramdaman ang ang LOVE ano nga ba ang love according sa site na pinagtanungan ko ang love ay yung pakiramdam kung saan pareho kayong masaya at ang tingin nyo sa isa't - isa ay mahalaga. Naramdaman ko na ba bo 'to ? siguro hindi pa , kasi kahit sa sarili kong pamilya turing nila sakin ay isang basurang pakalat kalat lang .
"You have a heart disease and a very weak heart and pag hindi pa ito na agapan ay pwede mong ikamatay" the doctor said my heart keep a beat ..
"Doc. onlyu a heart transplant can heal it right?" i said ..
"Yes Ija and pag hindi pa ito naagapan you'll die i give you 5 months to find a heart"
"THAT EARLY?" i asked
"Yes Ija, because your life has a limit after 6 months you'll die" the doctor said.
It's been 3 months after i consulted to him so it means i only have 3 months to enjoy my freaking life. Anyways I'm Denise Delos Santos 16 years old so young to die . Hays! but that's life ... we must accept the fact . in 16 years that I've been living i didn't feel to be love even to my family and also here in our campus ..
I'm known as GEEK NERD . and such .. i don't even have a friend .. Why ? They don't want me because i'm N-E-R-D . i looked like an old lady .. wearing long palda and long sleeves and i also wear eye glasses . i don't know about the fashion . all i know is books,books and books ! anyways i'm here at my room writing in my little diary ...
"TODAY MY CLASSMATE PUSH ME .. AND ALL OUR CLASSMATE LAUGH .. OH! AND TODAY MY SISTER YELLED AT ME BECAUSE I DIDN'T BUY THE BAG SHE WANTS AND MY PARENTS ALSO MAD AT ME BECAUSE I WENT HOME LATE BECAUSE I WENT TO THE MALL AND SEARCH FOR MY SISTER'S BAG"
i closed my diary and look at the window ... i can see the moon and the stars ...
"When did they slop hurting me?" i asked myself i just smiled bitterly ...
"Soon. When you're dead." I said
my parents didn't know about my weak heart .. HAHA! how will they know? they don't even care about me even a little time to talk to me they don't have . i just smiled again . i turn off the light and closed my eyes ..
Months, Days Passed ~
tomorrow is Dec. 24 24 is the day that i went to hospital and find out that my life will ended after 6 months! so it's officially ! 3 months nalang then boom! bye life ! and also after 3 months is our graduation day .. running for valedictorian .. i went out from my room . i go to our sala and my mom,dad and my sissy is there . maybe it's the right time...
"Mom....Dad...?"
"WHAT?" mommy
"I have something to---" he cut me off
"Oh,Denise we're busy .. is that important? " my dad asked
"Not really but---" she cut me off
not really important but very important
"It;s not important? so please stop? cant you see mom and dad is both busy? Tsk" my sister said. yeah .. it's not important i stand up then i went upstairs ..
"HOW DARE YOU TO SNOB ME HUH?" my sister said.
"WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU DENISE? HOW DID YOU TURN LIKE THAT?" my mom said..
