Confused

Hate Love

My name is Gabriella. I work in a Head Quarters of a Restaurant Franchise, as a part of the IT team. Strange enough, I actually started off as a waitress at one of their branch but I was doing my video editing one afternoon on a break time; the restaurant closed on off peak after lunch time and resume for dinner afterwards. The person in charge for the IT department saw my work and actually dig out my credentials from my resume, and found out that I am holding an ICT diploma. They scooped me out of the restaurant, and placed me in one of their IT nerd seats. The pay is way higher so I don't find any reason to complain.

I'm a petite woman with a pretty face, but my body is normal. My hips and breasts are small, but I'm thankful it is because my face and personality alone attracted a lot of unwanted men in my life. Most of them coming in horny and lusty, only one out twenty offering love, but often intimidated by how of an alpha I am. I guess I'm okay with being single for millenniums. Won't live that long anyway.

Okay, let me give you a little bit of idea of how my personality attracting men with protruding reproduction organ. I'm really open to almost any kind of conversation and I love dirty joking. My mouth often contrasted my soul, which where, I want to keep my body, mind and soul plus the heart for only one, but I'm often blabbering about how important a blow job is. Truth is, I only sexed twice in my 28 years of living. The first one was when I was 10 years old, I was raped by a drunken man, and the second was on my birthday somewhere around my 24th, it wasn't fun, a wild guy with a small dick and insecurities, who's fucking me while apologizing about how small his guy are. Lord. It turns me off big time for sex, and for love.

But then, there's Ryo.
Ryosuke Blanc. This guy is a mix of Japanese and Australian. Sizzling hot, sexy accent, oh my God. He is the head chef of all the restaurants chain, and we often encounter each other when we're processing on a new menu for one of the restaurant. He is gorgeous, tall, blue eyes, black curly hair, fair skinned, and a deep voice. Everything you could ever asked for in a male. But guess what, he is extremely rude. To everyone, except for the bosses. Which kinda turns me off. What a loser. He's always picking on the weaker man, especially the trainees. I worked with him way back,   in restaurant together. He was the regular chef, and I was one of the waitress. Yeaop, I indulged quiet an amount of his cursing like "Fuck you"or "stupid idiot" and some of his Japanese and Australian curses that I will reply in my own language. He will go extremely fierce on his colleagues, but he will mellow down drastically when the bosses are around. In which, I always called him out as a coward. Well, he deserved it.
I loathed him. The entire pieces of him. But somehow, the universe always been crossing our path. By the way this guy is already taken. He have a girlfriend, which work as a lawyer and they are rumored to be engaged soon. His girlfriend is really nice and thick. Her name is Audry. I was told that one of the years in Ryo's relationship with her, Audry cheated and caused Ryo to be broken hearted for quite a while. But I can't imagine Ryo to be sad. It's almost impossible for him to be because he is too fierce, almost as if he does not contain any other emotions in his heart. Well, let's see.