Confused

Loathe and Lust

Frank sure is a romantic guy. He booked a table in a fine dining restaurant, in a quiet corner near a river thread. The ambience of the restaurant is light dim with chandeliers and candles. It's not a busy night so we enjoyed the whole night whispering among the other guests. After we finished our last scoop of dessert and drank our last drop of wine, he suggested an underground bar not too far from the restaurant.
Walking along the alley to that place, Frank slide his arm across my waist and let me walk in the on the right side, for the road is on his left. One thing about me is that, I lack experience in romance so anything protective and sweet will melt me in an instant. And right now I feel like blooming like a sugar sweet rose.
"I had been longing to ask you out since you were still a waitress," Frank started a conversation. I smiled.
"Oh really? Wouldn't your rich family be upset seeing you going out with a nobody like me?"
He stopped and pulled me to face him. I stare at his gorgeous eyes, looking directly towards mine. I feel like drowning, sinking, with his right arm around my shoulder, and his left gripping my waist. The body contact spread a warm sensation towards my heart and brain, and and we're not even doing anything yet. He lift my chin with his fingers, reducing the gap between us. I can feel his breath blowing my soul.
"I would never bow to anyone, if it's come to love, Gabby," he pulled me in. We're now tightly wrapped by his arm and I don't know what to do. I have this urge to put my palm on his chest and his marvellously round butt cheek, but my arm stayed still in its position, not wanting to cave in.
"If I'm in love, I don't need validation. If I didn't steal for it, hurt anyone for it, trust me Gabby, I would be with just anyone I fall for," he spoke with a brisk voice, he let out a deep breathe before proceeding his lips to mine. And I caved in eventually. My hands automatically headed to where the way to be. As my palm lightly rubbed his sexy bum, he let out a heavy sigh and pulled me in closer and kissing me even wilder. I can feel the bulge between his crotch swelling, and I wonder if he's doing this only for sex. But the sensation all around my body surpass my ability to think straight. I scratched his back lightly and he stopped kissing for a while, looked at me in the eyes and goes; "I really love that" and sucked my soul out through my lips. This is going to the death of me. I can't fight the feeling I'm in right now.

I had to wear a long sleeve with a turtle neck the next morning, after my kissing incident with Frank the other night. He gifted me with hickeys and teeth marks all over my shoulder and neck. We did not fuck, to my relief, everything ended with him sending me home, after another half and hour kissing in his car at the roadside, and his hand sliding across my thigh and groin multiple times.

Frank left town the next day for business things, and I carried on. He didn't text me and I don't have the heart to text first.. I don't want to look desperate for a label just because we did a thing or two that night. And I am actually quite occupied so it helped me big time not to think about nonsense.

Next project is up and this is a big one. We are teaming up with another company for an event, and I have to be really meticulous with everything I'm dealing with. And I want to do my best even if it means I have to work with Ryo all the way. And yes, the both of us are actually the project manager for this one and yeah, as I mentioned, the universe always be crossing our path, as if I haven't been loathing him bad enough.

"Gabby, we need to meet the team from the other company tomorrow to discuss our collaboration," Ryo popped up in my desk. "okay," I replied. Short and sweet. Sweet?
"oh yeah and you know I'm not good in those stuff that you need to do, yknow the writing down every details so I think you should do that one," he added. I nodded.
"Please bring your lap top and the draft we need to present, and check the background of this company thoroughly, see if there's any bonus loop we can add to accomodate them, we will have a good review then, we need this one, they're big in the game," he spoke again. I nodded, scribbling down everything he said. I waited another few seconds for any more instructions, but I think due to my unresponsiveness, he walked away.
So there you go, the annoying Ryo. Bitching and instructing me as if we're not at the same level of accountability in this project. I hope one day I can give him a nice puch on his face.
The day went on, everything is almost settled, all that's left is to present the end result of our successful event with the other team. And for that I have to compile our things from the start, I need to bug a lot of people especially Zack, our data manager, who have been working there for almost six years, a really quiet guy, with an extremely nerd personality and he look like he's sick of me bugging him.
Ryo refused to do the rest of the job because 'he is not good with ict and computer', my ass. He is trying to push everything to me, again. I'm enduring everything, cause I'm tired of trouble. To lessen the amount of time bugging people, I collected everything I need in a day, and stayed till late in the office to process what I've got.

Everything went well till the day of presentation. The night before the presentation, I packed everything I need and stacked it on my desk. The next morning, right before the meeting, the pendrive I uses to keep everything went missing. I'm panicking as hell because it's going to be a presentation with the big bosses of both involved company, and I am one of the manager of the project. I checked every where, on my desk, even in my car and the smallest hole in the office but I guess, the pendrive poofed in the air, no trace. Ryo and my department manager was trying to help finding it but it's gone, we couldn't find it. Some said that the cleaners might have mistakenly thrown it away, or I misplaced it. I put on a thick face and requested a postpone to our Executive, and handled tons of questions and scoldings. I accepted everything, maybe it's partially my fault. I should have keep the pendrive with me every where if it's that important. I'm so ashamed and sad, because I did my best on this project. To make things worse, Zack already deleted all of the material I needed for the presentation, and that added to the misery. I went quiet the whole day. And decided to myself that I need alcohol, and proceed to the bar I went with Frank.

It's my ninth glass of gin and tonic when I saw or I drunkly imagine, Ryo popped up beside me and ordered a whiskey dry. He looked at me with a somewhat apologetic face on him. This is my chance. I swing my fist to his face and hit him right on his nose. But I think it's not strong enough because there's no blood coming out of his nostril, so I swing my fist again but he grabbed it. I swing the other one but he grabbed it, twisted it to my back, and held me tightly close. I'm lucky the bar weren't that busy and the only other party there was a couple of gay looking really busy at the other corner.
"You suck Ryo, yoouuuu issaaa bitch," I slurred. Ryou turned to the bartender. "How many glasses she's on?" The bartender raised 10 fingers. Ryo pulled out his card and paid for everything and dragged me out insisting "let's get you out of here".
The next thing I know we're in a park, my head is on his lap. I don't want this position. But I'm way too drunk to get up and hit him again.
I begin to cry. I guess the stress finally decided to hit. It was a nice five minutes of me crying before he uses his finger to wipe my tears.
"I'm sorry Gabby."
"There's no need for that now, Ryo. Everything happened already. And it's not fair, I worked really hard for this," I sobbed.
"I know," for some reason, I am pissed off with his response. I faced him with anger. The distance of our face is only and inch close.
"what do you know? You pushed all the work to me, like a slave. I did almost every thing, I stayed late in the office, you didn't care, you only shared the final result!" I broke down in tears again. And I don't remember but my face is on his chest and sobbing non stop with his hand caressing my hair.
"I don't know what this have to happen Ryo. And why do you hate me so much, you're almost bullying me every time we see each other at work," I bawl my eyes out. This is the night of a drunken confession. Please lord don't remind me of any of this in the future. Ryo cupped my face and force my eyes to meet his.
"I have never feel that way about you, Gabs. I thought you're the one who hates me,"
"because you're bullying me!"
"I really didn't think my action as bullying,"
"what not bullying? You're doing that every time we meet, I'm always uncomfortable meeting you but I hide it because why would I be scared... " Ryo planted a soft, long kiss on my lips. I was petrified, drunkly shocked. He went in again. And I feel that same sensation I felt when I kissed Frank, spreading all over me and halting my brain. When I tried dodging, he held me still and I realize that I'm actually on top of him, while he is sitting on the park bench. I'm wearing a dress, and my crotch is on top of his. His giant biceps are around tiny me and my eyes are looking up at him, wet with tears, my lips wet with his kisses.
" Oh Gabby you look so perfect even when you cry," he whispers on my ear and start nibbling them, proceed to my neck and to my chin. I moaned. Tried to push him away.
"Oh my god, I'm supposedd to hate you Ryo, you're very bad guy," he stops for a second and went;
"let me show you what bad really means, Gab," his hand went lower and lower, to my hips, with our clothes still on, he humped lightly and I can feel his bulge. And I'm going crazy, this guy is driving me insane. He held me with his hand and bit my breast with the bra still on. He pulled me in and I don't know what has gotten into me, I stop him mid kissing and gazed right into his eyes.
"I can be bad too Ryo, I'm not going to always be submissive,"
I pushed him against the bench and reach out for his lips, I sunk my teeth on it and sucked it like there's no tomorrow. He moaned. His hand is now accessing my dress, rubbing my pussy.

I remember giving him hickeys on his chest.

I remember hugging him so tight.

I remember moaning so hard.

After that, everything went black.