Give me some hope

Its over

Josie POV

I open my eyes slowly I slept so well last night. Wait who am I wrapped around? I open my eyes fully and see that hopes legs and my legs are wrapped together, Hope has her arm wrapped around my waist and my face was buried in her neck.

I look at Hopes beautiful sleeping face and all the feelings come back. What am I suppose to do now?

How can I be with her and not have those feelings. I must get up and leave before I do something stupid. I try and untangle myself from her it was hard but I soon got myself out of her tight hold. I put my feet on her carpet beside her bed and sigh.

I don't want to leave but I know I must. I sigh louder and get up but I feel a hand grab my hand.
"No don't go" hope says in her very sexy morning voice. Her eyes were still shut and she just looked so peaceful.

"I have class" I say looking down at her hand in mine.
"No not yet" she says
"Hope I have to go to class, and I need to talk to Dean about the thing with Lizzie"
"Can't That wait until later?" She says her eyes still closed. She's so stubborn that's one thing I love about her. Whoa I need to stop.

"No hope I have to go you know I don't like being late for school" I Say and look away trying to get out of her grip but she holds my hand tight.
"Hope-" I turn back to look at her and that's when I'm meet with blue sad eyes. That look was enough to send me straight into her arms but I know I can't.

"Please. Please stay with me. Just for a few more minutes" she says her voice so soft and sweet. I sigh and look away before finally giving in. I climb back into bed and hope grabs me and pulls me into her arms. She sighs as she puts her face in my neck. Her warm breath on my neck sent shivers down my spine.

I don't close my eyes I just stare at the ceiling. What am I going to do about these new feelings?

Must I just ignore them?

Or should I tell her?

No I can't tell her she would probably laugh at me. There's only one thing I can really do and that's to stop this.

Stop the kissing, talking and the loving. No more of it just like before she kissed me at that party. Stop all of it it's the only way to stop these feelings from growing.

It's final no more Hope mikaelson.

"Can I go now hope?" I Say coldly. Hope sits up and looks me in my eyes. I give her cold eyes and hers just look confused.
"Yeah" she says and I don't waste a second. I get up grab my stuff and walk out the room not even saying goodbye.

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I walk through the hallways my mind blank. I don't want to think about anything else except for school. Like I used too.

All these school kids have there own problems yet they are so good at hiding it. How?

I probably look like a lost puppy trying to find it's way around. I hate it I hate feeling like this.

I think someone was calling my name but I don't know and to be honest I don't give a shit. Everyone must just leave me alone so that I can figure what the fuck to do.

"JOSIE!" Just keep walking I tell myself. That's when I feel someone grab me and pull me away. They pull me into another empty classroom. They let go of me but I refuse to turn around. I'm afraid that I'll see the face I love so much.

"Jo?" Fuck. It's her.
"Jo what's wrong?" I still don't turn around.
"Please don't be cold with me" I can hear the sadness in her voice. It's breaking my heart I swear she can hear my heart breaking into a million pieces.

"Please-"
"We have to stop" I say holding my head down.
"What, please just look at me" I don't turn around but I feel my body being turned. I still hang my head low and just look at shoes.

A hand goes under my chin and pulls me up to look at her face. All I see is sad eyes.
"Jo please-"
"We have to stop this" I say gesturing with my hand.
"What why?"
"Because we have to stop. I don't think it's healthy anymore"
"Not healthy- Josie What are talking about?"

I can't peel my eyes away from her face.
"Can we just stop"
"But-but-I don't want to stop" she says and that just made it way harder to let go. I close my eyes.
"Please hope" don't cry don't cry.
"But I don't want to stop" she says the sadness present in her voice.

"We have too its gone on for too long, it's just sex Hope please" I say  letting my voice break at the end.
"Jo please don't-"
"Hope please just stop don't make this harder than it already is!" I Say letting the tears fall down my face. I open my eyes and see how hurt hopes face is.
"Jo we can figure something out right?" I shake my head.

"We have to stop and you know it"
"No-"
"Hope!" I shout at her and see a tear fall down her face.
"Goodbye hope" I say turning away from her and walking away but before I walk away I heard a faint 'don't leave me' but it was probably in my head.

I walk fast but soon start running. I run through the corridors and all the way to the sitting area. I look around the room only to see Dean sitting in a chair reading a book. I walk slowly towards him. I put a 100 bucks on the table beside him. He looks up from his book at me than the money.
"Josie what is..." he slowly looks into my eyes.

"Oh my Josie"he says and I start to sob. He gets up and wraps his arms around my body and I cry into his shoulder. Letting the cry of pain escape my lips.
"I've fallen in love" I whisper cry to him and he pats my back. I hold him tight and shut my eyes tighter.

"It hurts" I Say and he tightens his grip on me.
"It hurts so much" I say.

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Well it took me awhile to calm down and gather myself but I did it. I start fix my makeup in the mirror Dean beside me watching me. Dean hasn't asked me anything he just took me to my room, I'm grateful he didn't ask questions.

"Jo-"
"Don't call me Jo please" I say the nickname just brings my thoughts to hope and to her crying face.
"Ok Josie. Please tell what happened"
"I agh...don't want to talk about it....for now at least" he nods his head.

"Let's go" I say. I made myself look presentable and in and way it made me feel better. Dean and I make our way out my room and down the stairs. I just have to make it through this day.....

You have to be fucking with me.

There hopes was with some chick who was practically eating her face.

I felt the tears fight me to fall.

I see dean looking at me and than back at hope.

"It's hope isn't it?"

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