Tell Me This Isn't Real ~ Tododeku Love Story

1 - Acceptance

(Todoroki pov)

As I walked down the halls, I couldnt help but feel jittery. I had been feeling strange lately, getting flustered every time I saw my classmate, Izuku Midoriya. We weren't close though so I had no right to call him Izuku. To me, his name was Midoriya. But that wasn't why I was feeling so jittery. I was afraid that people were beginning to realize I was gay, a fact not even I myself had learned to come to terms with. It was new to me and it scared me. I knew that nobody would want a gay guy to be a super hero. Nobody would want a gay guy saving their lives. Our society was so closed off and homophobic, even if I didnt see the awful acts of homophobia on the streets. I just sort of knew how society was. I also knew that my father would more or less probably kill me if he found out that I wasn't straight. He was always asking me when I would get a girlfriend, when I would make him proud, but I didnt have the heart to tell him the truth. He would surely abandon me. Not that I didn't want that, but I had nowhere else to go. The school probably wouldn't be very happy if I stayed at the dorms all summer, and I didnt want to look weak by asking anyone if I could stay with them. It was just that simple. I couldn't tell a soul that I was gay. Except maybe Midoriya, but only if we got close enough that I would feel comfortable confessing my feelings. The only problem was that I was too afraid to do that.

So as I walked down the UA halls to the 1-A classroom, I felt nervous. I was good at hiding my feelings, but that didnt mean I never felt them. I just hoped I would be able to efficiently hide my crush on Midoriya as long as I could, or at least, until it went away. If it ever went away.

"Hi, Todoroki-kun!" A girl said lightly.

I turned around and saw Yaoyorozo standing behind me, waving at me.

"Hey, Momo." I responded.

We were close friends so I called her Momo. I told her she could call me Shoto after we became close about six months ago, but she never did. I found it strange, but accepted it.

"How are you this morning?" She asked me.

"I'm fine. What about you?"

"I'm great! Thanks for asking!"

Then we walked to our seats and the chat between us ended because Mr Aizawa had stepped into the classroom.

***

After the lesson, I was packing up my notes to go to lunch when I overheard a conversation between Uraraka, Asui, Ashido, and Yaoyorozo.

"Yeah, we're finally dating!" Uraraka grinned.

Who? I thought.

"Wow you two are like so perfect for each other!" Mina replied.

"Yeah! You have the same personality and you're both positively adorable!" Chuckled Yaoyorozo.

"I'm happy for you and Midoriya." Asui said.

That's when everything came crashing down. My mouth went dry as I stood up and left the classroom. I didn't go to lunch. I went straight to the bathroom and cried. Not loudly, but still. After about five minutes if quietly crying, I stopped, taking a deep breath and rinsing off my face. I waited until the puffiness around my eyes went away before making my way back to the classroom. I wasn't hungry anymore.

In the classroom, I found Midoriya and Uraraka hugging each other, Mina having a big fangirl moment while Iida told them to get back to work. I suddenly felt sick, but I ignored it and sat down at my desk. As Uraraka continued getting all up on Midoriya, my sick feeling grew stronger. Midoriya was just calmly sitting at his desk, working on notes with Uraraka pressing herself up against his back, resting her head on his shoulder and cradling him from behind. My throat began to tickle slightly, but I of course ignored it. Class was about to start and everyone was filing into the room. I couldnt just get up to leave or I would be late. Uraraka finally peeled away from Midoriya, going back to her desk. Mr Aizawa entered the room.

Throughout class, the tickling in my throat got no better. In fact, it seemed to get worse every time I looked at Midoriya or Uraraka. After a while, I felt so sick and the tickling was so bad I rose my hand and asked if I could be excused to go to the bathroom.

"No." Mr Aizawa replied.

I felt so sick that I just shrugged and got up anyway, walking to the door.

"Didnt I just say you couldn't go to the bathroom?" Mr Aizawa asked.

I ignored him as I sped walk down the hall to thr bathroom, clasping my hand to my mouth. When I got to the bathroom I fell over the toilet. Nothing came up straight away and I sat over the toilet for a while before I started coughing. The coughs were rough and hurt and soon enough, I was leaning over the toilet bowl, eyes shut as an unknown substance left my lips. It didnt feel like puke though. It felt almost soft and it most definitely wasnt liquid. When I opened my eyes, still coughing, I was horrified to see a bunch of flower petals floating around in the toilet bowl. My coughing eased down and I was left panting in the bathroom stall.

"Are you all right, Todoroki?" A familiar voice asked.

My heart nearly stopped when I realized it was Midoriya. Luckily he couldnt see me through the locked stall door.

"I-I'm fine."

Did I just stutter? Now he'll know something's up! I thought to myself.

"You dont sound alright, Todoroki."

"I'm fine, really."

"Tell me the truth! What's going on?"

"Nothing that concerns you." I said with a bit of a snarl.

"Fine. Just please come back to class. Aizawa-sensei said you need to come back. You've been gone for fifteen minutes."

That long already?

Suddenly, I got another attack, beginning to wheeze as flower petals filled my throat. I coughed and wheezed and clenched my throat, coughing up petals into the toilet.

"Todoroki?? What's going on??"

I tried to respond but I wasnt make to form any words. I just couldnt stop coughing. After a minute or two, the coughing stopped. I got up and decided to go back to class, shocked to see Midoroya waiting outside the stall for me.

"Dont go back to class. You sound awful."

"What do you mean? I'm fine."

"You'll get everyone sick."

"No, this isnt something contagious."

"You sound like you threw up. That sounds like a stomach bug or a fever and those are both contagious."

"No, Midoriya, not what I have. If I really did come down with a fever, I would be completely willing to go back to the dorms. I wouldnt risk getting other people sick. But what I have is not contagious. Trust me."

"Fine. But if anyone else gets sick..."

"I'm fine, Midoriya. Let's go back to class."

As we left the bathroom, I stopped.

"Congrats on you and Uraraka. You guys seem good for each other." I stated monotone-like.

"Thanks..."

And so we went back to class, everyone giving us a strange look. I had made sure to walk a few paces behind Midoriya so nobody would get the wrong idea or anything.

"What was that all about, Mr. Todoroki? Care to explain?"

"I felt sick. That's all. It turned out to be nothing though."

"Alright...just dont leave without permission again."

A few hours later, school had ended and I was back in my dorm room trying to work on homrwork when I suddenly started thinking about earlier that day. I started thinking about Midoriya and Uraraka dating, and his affection she was being with him. Ugh. It was so disgusting.

Suddenly, my throat began to tickle again. I tried to avert my focus back to my homework, but I couldnt. So I took out my phone and watched a video, but still nothing. I couldnt stop thinking about how disgusting Uraraka was with Midoriya. I knew I shouldnt be so rude, and I hated myself because I was being a jerk, but I couldnt stop myself. The tickling in my throat grew worse, and next thing I knew I was running to the bathroom to  cough up more petals.

"Todoroki....?"