Smile at me| V FF

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My fingers were twitching and my legs felt like they were jelly as we were following the staff member to who knows where.

The walls were closing on me. Anxious I grabbed for the right hand of my friend.
Briggs looked surprised by the contact but then she looks at me, noticed my state and therefore smiled at me reassuringly.

"Is everything ok", she mouthed concerned.

I just nodded my head.

Briggs looked forward and asked:" Excuse me. How long do we have to go till we are here?"

The worker didn't answer us, but we still kept on going following his lead. Until we stopped before a door where loud noises came out.

The stuff opened the door and stepped in. He signalled us to wait a moment.
The door closed and we were left alone.

"So what now? You know what I think I really need to go use the toilet.", I stuttered to my best friend.

"Oh no young lady. You will not leave me here alone. Wasn't that your dream to meet them? Put your shit together!", Briggs took my hand and pushed me before the door.

At this very moment the black door opened an I was face to face with the members of BTS.

And Rm stood before me . His tall figure hovering over me. It was intimidating.

I gulped, falling deep into the dark eyes which were glaring back at me. I could barely stand, knowing that I was inches away from RM's face. My whole body began to shake, I tried to move my hand, in vain. I couldn't feel nor move a single finger, my whole arm was numb.

The paralyzed feeling spread through my body, making me glued to the floor.
I took a sharp breath when I felt his breath on my cheek.
He was way too close.

Doesn't he know anything about personal space?

Luckily Briggs stepped into the moment, easing up the build up tension between me and him.

"Oh... My... I can't believe this is actually happening!?", she laughed slightly bowing to RM and then to the other as a sign of respect.

She pinched my arm, so I would come back to my senses again.

"Uhhhhh", I said still in shock and in  disapproval.

"Come on in, we were about to thank you you for making this possible.", Rm started, stepping aside, revealing the huge dress room with all the members gathered around a table.
Their eyes immediately fell on me, I hissed.

When I felt Brigs pushing me forward, I slowly started to gain back the control of my body.
It was really bad, I am not even joking right now.

He lead us in and offered us to sit wherever we wanted.

At that point I just wanted to go home, I felt too embarrassed to stay there.
Who could have guessed my dream could turn into a nightmare?

Briggs was getting annoyed with my stupid behavior, thus she murmured: "Sit yo' ass down, now."

I obeyed and sat between Jungkook and Taehyung.
My face was looking directly at RM, when his eyes met mine he smiled at me.

I felt saliva forming in my mouth when I saw those dimples, my heart was accelerating the whole time, it was beating so fast I was scared it could explode.

When Taehyungs skin slightly brushed against mine, I was pushed to my absolute limits.

I hope they didn't hear my heartbeat, because it was going absolutely crazy at that point.

You thought it couldn't get any worse?
Well, you are wrong.
I'm dying right now.

"We are overly grateful for your support, especially for your e-mail. If you had not suggested that, we wouldn't have been holding a concert today.", he explained.

Briggs nodded and he carried on: "I actually wanted to come to Vienna a long time now. I like it here a lot."

"You have been here before?", Briggs inquired.
God damn was she chatty, but at least she was trying to have a conversation.
I on the contrary was just pathetically sitting there, not daring to move an inch or even make a noise.

"Well, I have been here once or twice", he admitted and smiled again.

"Next time you are here, let us now we will be your tour guide.", Briggs joked to which all of them laughed.

It was so funny that all of them giggled along, although they had no clue what we were talking about, so even I ,after being so timid about everything, let out a snicker.

To which I felt somebody dropping his eyes on me.

The person tapped at my shoulder, and there it was again.
Just when I was about to slowly relax this just had to happen.

My skin covered itself up with goosebumps, as if it wanted to protect itself from the touch.

I turned, so he wouldn't feel how tenses up this mini-touch got me. What effect a simple tap had on me.

"Your uhhh- smile eees- uhm- cute, very cuttte!", he commented.

My whole face blushed in a bright red colour, I was gazing back at Taehyung with a lost facial expression.

"Goshhh, please I wanna go home", I wished in my mind, while trying me best in returning his smile.

Without any hesitation I looked at my phone to escape the moment and break the eye-contact.

My lock screen brightened up and I saw the time.
10 pm.

"OH! VINCENT VAN GOGH!", Taehyung screamed beside me, drawing all the attention on us.

I blinked and noticed what he meant.
My lock screen was a painting of his: "Starry Night"

I tilted my head a bit and agreed: "Yeah... I like his technique."

Did I look at Taehyung? Of course I didn't, stupid.
If I had done that, I wouldn't have been able to talk.

So that's how our conversation began...
Thankfully everybody was going back to what they were doing before. Taehyung shrieked in a high pitched tone like a kid who was just rewarded with some candy.
Consequently I was getting more and more confident with him and finally could talk to him while holding eye-contact.

"Uh- Do you Uh- know about death?"
"You mean that he allegedly shot himself?"
"Yah! Shot himself- uhhh- Namjoon-Ah!"

RM turned to him, pausing his conversation with Briggs as he asked something in Korean I did not unterstand.

Finally he locked eyes with me again and told me: "suicide"

I laughed a bit and claimed: "I don't think he did it, do you?"

We all proceeded to chat, honestly we got along pretty well.
Jimin even proudly showed us his newest tattoo he got.
(don't worry it was just his arm)

Me und Suga reckoned about piano, he promised me to once teach me his solo called First Love if we ever meet again. Which I don't think will happen.

Perhaps in an other life.
I tried to beat Jungkook in a Mario-Card round on his phone, but never did.

In all honesty, the more time we spend the more it felt like we were friends and not just fans of them. Or at least they gave us that feeling...