Well all of the bullying started in Elementary school. The Bullying wasnt as bad as it is and still is while im in High School. In grade school people would make fun of me because of my name,they would call me feather and then it was really hurtful and people laughed at me because i was fat. The school didnt really care and they STILL dont. People would make fun of me because i was in Special Ed,i have a learning problem and i still do,i couldnt help with my problems and it was painful knowing i would have to go back the next day knowing that i have to deal with this even more. Every morning i cried because i didnt want to get bullied even more.In middle school,it was still getting worse. People made fun of me for being myself,people would call me ugly,stupid,retarted,fat,everything known,and you know it really hurted and they didnt see that,i wish they could have,but that wasnt the worst part about all of this.
But it only got worse and worse by the years. High School has been horrible. Many people have told me that high school would get better,no it didnt it got worse. It got worse by Junior year. Every single day,in my math class, a kid named Chris,threw stuff at me,flipped me off behind the teachers back,kicked my desk and the back of my chair,it happened every single day in that class,and guess what the teacher did? Nothing at all. I even went home and told my mom everyday about this,and i have went to my princapal about this,and my teacher told him. "oh its his personality". Me and my mother both said bullshit,he shouldnt be bullying anyone,it doesnt matter what his issues are,nobody should be bullying anyone. A thing that is really major and really really sad is that this school doesnt really realize that this school caused my depression,and i cant believe i even have to say that. i went home everyday and cried and cried even more,i just couldnt deal with it anymore,i just wanted to die,i felt like nobody cared. i was scared to go back the next day knowing that i would have to go through this again and again,nobody should have a fear of going to school. To be honest,i go to school to do what i have to do and leave. i dont have many friends because alot of them have turned there back on me. Last year,these two girls who i probably should of been friends with, cursed me off,told me that nobody liked me,to go kill myself,that i was a sl**,a who**,a c***,so many mean things to me in text message,and i saved it all and showed my school. they even posted statuses about me on facebook. no names were involved but they posted it right after we talked or it happened,it was obvious. So i went to my school and tried to tell them everything,it took me TWO weeks to get everything done,to stop it. Guess what happened? My princpal told me it wasnt bullying and i was looking for all of this. I asked him "what is bullying if this isnt?" he said "calling someone gay is bullying". i was really upset that this even was said,they worst part about that is that,both girls were in there with me and others and they both saw me crying,and it made it worse.
Its sad to say that this school has gaven me depression. Depression is really serious and scary. Some people dont realize how much pain you go in just to get through the day. you cry everyday,feeling like nobody cares,that your not wanted,thinking "why should i be alive? people dont treat me right to give me a reason?" all you think about is sudical and not knowing what to do. Nobody at all knows how it feels unless your going through it with them. BUT i am glad to say that i AM getting all the help that i can get. i do go to treatment and i am on meds. so to anyone being bullied and feel the same way,dont be afraid to get help because its good to get help,you are not looking for attention,you are looking for help. You Are Not Alone! and Stay Strong with me!
DONT EVER BULLY ANYONE BECAUSE YOU DONT KNOW THERE LIFE TRULY.
