Finding Home

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Here I stand. In front of that door, which could change my future. I sigh and knock.
"Come in.", said a voice behind that door. So I enter that room. It's a simple conference room with three people in there. I greet them and they tell me to sit down in front of them.
"So your Name is Melinda Holmes. 23 Years old, coming from Germany and lived abroad for some
time. England, USA to name a few.", I just nod, since I ́m still pretty nervous.
"You have build stages for various Artists, organized a lot around them, you are familiar with accounting and speak 4 different languages. You seem pretty talented. But you seem lost at the same time.", there we have it. He is absolutely right. I am lost. I have a lot of abilities but don ́t know how or for what to use.
"Maybe I am lost. But I want to find my place to stay, my place to work and live. You could say, I search for my home. I am tired of searching.", I told them with a tear in my eye, but can hold it back before it drops. Those men are whispering something, what I can ́t hear. What next?
"Well Ms. Holmes. Let ́s try it. You are working with us on the planning for a fanmeet and additional you will co-managing a group. Just simple stuff. How does that sound?"
"Perfect, Mr. Lee Soo-Man.", I just replied with a big smile.
So yup. That's me. Melinda. 23 Years old. Born and raised in Germany, tried my luck in London as a Eventplanner and Photography assistant. After that I travelled to the USA, only to meet my old music Teacher. His son is a famous DJ and needed help for his production for the Tour. I helped, cause why not. There I found my passion. Sitting there. Watching the shows and direct them. Helping that everything works out as planned. But I couldn ́t stay there. Not because I wasn ́t good. Because it wasn ́t those kind of shows I want to direct for a long time.
I thought my Journey was over. To go back to my old life, was never a option. The Tour Manager from him set up a Meeting with some of his friends from SM-Entertainment. They said, maybe theres a place for me. But like everyone else I have to talk to the CEO and so on.
Here I am now. In Seoul, in the SM Building and most importantly I have a chance to stay.

Coming home. For some people it is something so normal. But for me it isn ́t. I am not coming home. I am coming to a two room flat, in the middle of Seoul. A city which is restless and never sleeps. Like me. It ́s still not a personal space. It is some space. To sleep, take care of me and for my homeoffice.
I moved here two weeks ago. With the mindset of all or nothing. So I can ́t relax right now. I look over the dispo for the next day. Five AM arrival at the Company. 30 Minutes later, driving to music bank and watch. Watch how its done. Maybe help where I can help. After the taping my day is not over. Returning to SM and attending a meeting. I lay that paper down, make me a tea and sit down on my one-person balcony. Seeing all those light, reminds me of a stage set. Or a Concert as itself. It can be exciting, calming, an experience and so much more. With those thoughts I went to bed.