August 26, 1988
Dear Diary,
Last night, for the first time in a long time, I didn't feel scared to leave my house.
I'm almost always terrified to make plans because I don't want Ben to be stuck with my parents, but last night he was at his best friend Melanie's house, and my parents were both out probably screwing other people behind each other's back, so it felt nice not to feel like garbage for going out and actually having fun for once.
Harry Parker and I have been best friends since middle school. I hit him upside the head with a dodgeball during gym class, and I felt horrible about it, so I took him to the nurse's office. He said he liked my bracelet, I said I liked his big hair, and boom, we became best friends.
As a kid, I was scared to have him come over after school. I didn't want him to see my family at each other's throats.
One day, in the back of Ms. Wagner's sixth grade math class, he asked me why we never hung out at my house and why we always had to hang out at the park instead. I tried my best not to cry and told him everything - every reason why I didn't want him in my house. I'm not going to get into detail, because I told him some really sensitive stuff that I don't feel comfortable reliving, but he felt really bad for me and let me know that he would always be my best friend, and he would always be there for me.
We had a lot of fun last night, until he echoed what he said in sixth grade. Normally, that would've made me feel calm and happy and all things positive, but it didn't.
I don't even know if Harry's my best friend anymore. He's dating Paris, the queen bitch of Derry High. Yes, I said queen bitch and not queen bee, because she really is a bitch. A stone cold, selfish, two-faced bitch. Apparently, she thinks that I'm a threat to their relationship, so she's keeping Harry away from me because she wants all his attention to be on her and no one else. We never really see each other anymore, and he doesn't call as much as he used to.
This probably doesn't make any sense, but I'm tired and upset and I don't care if it does or it doesn't. I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm losing my best friend. How do I get him back?
Jenny
