☁ Stray Kids x Reader Oneshots ☾☆

「LMH」❁ Good Enough

Hi, I'm back! Sorry for the long hiatus, I've been super busy with exams. This story was inspired by my own life experiences as I have a medical condition which makes it really hard to get through everyday life. It affects me a lot and this is just a way for me to vent. If you feel like you can relate to this story, please seek help. There are people out there who are willing to listen, and I'm be more than happy to talk if you decide to send me a DM. I'm not that active on Wattpad but if I see a notification I'll try my best to reply :)

Prompt: Reader feels insecure due to a medical condition and Minho notices how strangely she's been acting.

Minho POV

"I haven't heard from her all day."

I think Woojin spoke for all of us through that response. Y/N promised to come to the dorms for dinner tonight; that we'd all meet up there and then go to that ramen place down the street. That's what we planned to do at 8:00pm. It's 8:30pm and still no sign of her. Sure, she was always known to be late to plans because she loves to sleep in, but a part of me refuses to believe that that is the case. It can't be, not after I noticed her recent behaviour.

"I'll go pick her up," I offered, the others nodding in agreement.

I sighed, stepping outside to be greeted by the dim navy sky and flickering lights of the city, as well as the downpour of glistening raindrops. I pulled out my phone from my jacket pocket and texted Y/N's number.

Minhoe

Hey, if you want, I'll come and pick you up in 10?

Y/N POV

Fourteen years and here I am, hugging my knees to my chest on my mattress and sobbing into my pillow. Is this me being weak? Or me being strong for coping with this for so long? I'm not sure. It started when I was three and ever since, life hasn't been the same. That was fourteen years ago. I envy normal people who can live normal lives and not have to worry about simple tasks like writing or holding hands.

Jisung asked me if I would like to join him and his friends for dinner tonight; an offer I agreed to purely due to not wanting to sound rude. I had planned to complete a sketch for my art class major tonight, but that idea was quickly dismissed when I began uncontrollably crying at the thought that my medical condition prevents me from doing the one thing I love; drawing. Pencils laid haphazardly around my room; a result of my previous outburst which resulted in them being thrown against the walls along with my sketchbook. And now, after those events, I lay here, relentlessly scratching at my arms as a way of hurting my body in return for hurting me.

Then, I heard a knock at the door.

'Great,' I thought. This is how I'd love to greet a visitor- with tears streaming down my cheeks along with the mascara I had applied for tonight's events which, might I add, I would very much like to no longer attend in this state.

With a sigh, I sat up from my horizontal position and attempted to soothe the wavering of my voice before calling out.

"Yes? Who is it?"

My eyes widened when I received a response.

"It's me, Minho. I'm here to pick you up, remember?"

Remember? He never told me he was picking me up.

And then I remembered; my phone is off. I leave it off for a reason, that being social anxiety. People often complain that I take so long to respond to their texts or calls, but that's mostly due to my phone being off, not me personally avoiding them.

"Um, what? Sorry, give me a second," I replied, panicking as I tried to make myself appear somewhat presentable.

But the door was already opened, and Minho invited himself in. That, I hadn't realised until I felt a pair of hands grab my shoulders.

"Hey, are you alright? I thought I heard crying-" His question was cut short and simultaneously answered when he spun me around to be met with my tear stained face. A silence followed.

"How did you get in?" I lightly giggled, attempting to lighten the mood.

"The... The door was open." Minho muttered, his gaze never leaving mine until I turned to face the ground.

'Of course. I opened the door when I was about to leave, but then decided against it.'

"Oh... right." I replied, eyes glued to the carpet below my shoes which now suddenly seemed so fascinating.

"Y/N, what's wrong?" Minho finally asked, his brown eyes showing nothing short of worry before darting around the room at the art supplies which were scattered around the floor. "I realised you've been acting... off."

"Minho... look."

And that's when I held out my hand towards him and told him about my condition that I so passionately hate to talk about, though I would open up for him. I hated seeing him upset more than I hated myself and my problems.

His eyes widened, then softened, and he smiled at me. A kind, understanding, welcoming smile.

"So this is why you always refused to hold my hand when we walked through the city? Or panicked when Felix handed you that birthday card he made you last year?" Minho tilted his head and his smile had mostly faded by now.

"Yeah. Sorry..."

"For what?"

My eyes met his again before breaking eye contact for I couldn't bear to look into his eyes as I finally told him all the reasons why I loved him and hated myself.

"For ignoring you because of this and making you feel bad or as though I didn't like you. I'm just generally sorry... for not being good enough."

Minho didn't speak after that, but his eyes showed how his heart had broken due to my words.

"You are," he began, his grip on my hands loosening before letting go completely. "You are good enough."

I played with the hem of my skirt nervously. "I don't know..."

We both fell silent until I spoke up again.

"I only avoided you because I loved you and I didn't want you to find out how awful I am."

'Shit' I mentally cursed myself. Why would I say that?

"You're not awful." Minho smiled and placed his hands on my waist. "Not at all."

I looked up at him and felt my lips begin to mirror his smile.

"And," he began. "I love you, too."

☾☆♡ Wow, I'm so sorry for this. This story's so sad, please bear with me. I hope you enjoyed it regardless. Please feel free to request more scenarios with any member in the comments or via DM!