Mr. Wrong

Part5: Reasons

I opened my eyes. I was feeling dizzy and soulless. I couldn't even move my fingers. I had lots feelings and thoughts. I was trying so hard to shut down my mind to reach a moment of peace, but it was almost impossible. It was like drowning in the deepest ocean even though you knew how to swim. I was used, I was raped. I hated the idea of living like that. I was just like the first charecter of a very very sad Melodrama. I was hopeless. I needed help, but there was no one around me. In the past when I had a problem I used to talk to Izabella. Just by the thought of not having her anymore I started crying again. I needed someone to hug me immediately. I needed some peace, some hope, some words just to stop thinking about suicide.
I didn't want to die, but all I could think of waskilling myself. I was sick of living and also scared of dying. My body and soul wasn't mine. The girl that I've kept strong for 19 years was destroyed in 3 days.

I felt the bed cover was wet. When I looked at it it was full of my blood once again. I had to take a shower, but moving was so impossible. Then I heard Jungkook opening the door. He came closer and looked at me for a second. Then he attempted to move me like he did last night, but I shouted at him, " Don't Touch Me!!!"

He was shocked, but he didn't show it. He gave me a smirke and confidently said, " Like you can move..."
He tried to move me from the bed for the second time. This time I spoke with even a more serious sound, " Look whose talking? The one that made me like this. How could you rape me when I had an injury that you caused and so much pain to handle. Ahhhh
I almost forgot that you are a psychopath!!!!! "

He looked at me with some kind of anger in his eyes that he was trying to hide. Then he said:" I warned you not to run away, and I'm sure we both needed to get rid of our similar pains. I'm also your husband I will do whatever I want to do with you."
He wasn't really sure when he said the last sentence. This time I got really angry, but I controlled myself and said, " You don't even know about the simplest human's logic. I'm a human. I have my own rights. It doesn't matter who you are because I didn't want to do it, it was RAPE!"

I had to show him that I was not a stupid and weak girl, so I gathered all my energy and with the help of the stuffs in my way I made it to the bathroom door. Without looking at him or even truning to face him I said," You don't have pain anymore. Leave me alone after this! If you harm me even once again I promise I'll kill myself. Then you have to face living 4 years in pain."

He was really pissed off. I could feel it from the way he was breathing. He came closer and before I could shot the door, he put his foot in the was and opened the door. Then he looked at me in the face and said," You're not in the place to decide!"
Then he left the room and locked it again.

After 20 minutes of suffering with my bath, I came out to see Ava sitting on my bed. She looked at me and said, " Do you need help?"
How could I say no. I showed her my bandage and asked her if she could redo it for me. She closed the door and gently helped me with the bandage. She looked at my foot too. She wasn't happy, but she didn't say anything. She also helped me put some clothes on. I didn't have enough energy and I was as white as a wall. Ava took my hand and helped me to sit on one of the couches in the hall.
There was no one there. Ava went to kitchen and opened the refrigerator and brough 2 slices of cake and 2 cups of coffee. She sat beside me on another couch. It was an awkward silence between us. Then she asked, " Did it happen between you two?"
I looked at her. I knew exactly what she meant, and said, " yeah..."
She looked at me with her cat eyes and said, " It must have been hard on you. Do you want to talk?"

It was exactly what I wanted, but I didn't know if I could trust her. Some moments of silence passed and as if she could read my mind she said,"
No worries, I'm good at keeping secrets."

I looked at her and I couldn't control myself anymore. I burst into tears. Ava moved to sit right beside me. She put a blanket around me and put my head on her chest. She was tapping gently on my back at the same time. Between that ugly crying I tried to explain what happened. She was listening to me so well. Then she grabbed me and looked exactly into my eyes and said, " Don't worry! It will be okay! Stay strong like you did today! This life is chosen for you. It sounds miserable,but there is no other choice. He won't let you die I swear. It will be okay! You'll get used to it. "

After sobbing for about 10 minutes I was relieved. I was calmer and more mature about the situation. Ava tried to talk about other subjects to stop me from thinking about it. I asked her about the cake cuase it seemed to be a birthday cake. She became sad, but covered it up with a fake smile and said, " Today is my birthday. I wanted to celebrate with Taehyung, but he and others had an urgent business to do, so they all left."

I wanted to make her happy, but I didn't know how. Suddenly I felt strang about everything. About those 3 fucking days. " They didn't do amything to stop it from happening so why should I even care about her feelings?" I thought.
Besides I really wanted to know about what was their job exactly, so I asked," Can I ask about what exactly do they do? "

She confidently said," yeah, why not? You're a part of the family. Well, these boys are all from 7 families with a larg history of crime, but the thing is that they don't harm weaks. Their fathers were friends and brothers just like how it is for they themselves.Each family gave their crown to thier eldest son. Except for Jungkook, that lost his oldest brother in a cruel way. Each one of them have a specific role. The oldest is Jin, and he is the tracker.
Then there is Suga and he is the haker. Hoseok is the dealer. Namjoon is the leader. Jimin studied medicine cause he really liked to and also we really need his help almost everytime someone gets injured, but he is also a great planner. Taehyung is the sniper, and Jungkook is... "

She looked at me like she was scared to tell me, but as always she did a great job at hiding it. Then she looked at her coffee and said,"...Killer."

I wasn't even surprised. He could do such things real easily, but why? What was the reason behind all this cruelty?
I've seen lost of cases like this. When something bad happens in the past especially in someone's childhood, they'll go mad.

I wanted to know more, so I asked, " There are just 7 of them? I mean they work alone?"

Ava smiled and and said, " You are really amateur about crimes and criminals. Nope. It's almost impossible to be completely invisible and work all by yourself. Also I told you about our powerful families. They have losts of people working for each."

I askes what I really wanted to ask," what do they really do? "
Ava was silent for a while." They do great deals of drug, gold, cars, etc.
They don't kill or harm anyone unless it's necessary. They don't work for anyone. They work for themselves. If you also wanted to know that, but because of balencing the country's economy, government always look after them, so that's the reason you don't hear anything about them."

I suddenly found out something," Does that mean even if I try to get help from the police, it's gonna be useless? "
Ava became serious all of a sudden," Don't even think of running away again. You will only harm yourself. "

I didn't like the atmosphere that was made. I didn't talk anymore. I was with Ava all night. I understood that she was a real easy-going girl. She didn't care if anyone would disagree or don't like her opinions. Ava helped with almost everything. She even cooked for me. Her food was Ok. She also helped me to get some sleep. She didn't lock the door and before leaving she said, " You're a wise girl, so I trust you and I won't lock the door."

I was lying on the bed and thinking about if I should listen and stay, or to run away.