It just warms my heart when I can give and receive love.
In the meantime I need to appreciate the single life as since it does have it's upsides... I’ve found myself not having anyone a lot so whenever I meet someone that seems to be genuinely interested in me and caring about me (even if it’s not the actual reality of the situation) I’ll find myself thinking about them a lot. I’ll tell them things I can’t tell a lot of people because I have no one to confide in, etc. For me I think a lot of it is contact comfort. Having separated myself from most of society I spend a lot of time alone. So when I have someone that’s like wanting to hold my hand or cuddle up next to me or some shit it’s like taking molly lol. You add any sort of mental connection to it and I want that person by my side as much as possible.
I've thought I was in love numerous times when I was really just manic upon meeting or getting to know someone, I've trusted people faster, alot; told them my life story, with or without being self aware over the fact that they might not be totally interested or whether they don't care much. I sometimes feel guilty for not being self aware over what's happening or not explaining to people anything, cause it will just push them away to know that my love for them is induced by some episode and is not totally real.
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RandomJust spilling feelings about how being bipolar feels, most parts are about manic episodes rather than depressive episodes.
