Fatal (A Chris Motionless Fanfic)

A Storm In the Background

2 weeks later.

It's dark and I feel like every ounce of life is leaving me. I don't want to move out of the bed and I don't want to talk to anyone. We all have a time when we slip away, it just hits some of us harder than others. As for me, well, it's hitting me like a freight train.  It was like I couldn't cope with the outside world anymore and there was no point in acting alive. I just layed there, not saying a word and showing no emotion. There was a soft knock on the door and it opened to reveal Chris standing in the doorway. 

"Hey baby," he said with a weak smile. My depression had really been wearing on him and I think it was also starting to rub off on him. I didn't respond and the small smile he had left disapeared from his face leaving no trace of happiness behind. "Please let me help you," he begged. I still didn't respond, only pulled the blanket up over my head. I heard him sigh and walk out of the room in defeat. 

I knew he was only trying to be supportive and help but I just didn't want anyone near me. Yet at the same time I wanted him to wrap his arms around me and hold me tight. I was so torn about everything that went through my head at this point and it killed me to see Chris falling into the darkness I was in. It was like it was radiating around me and sucking anyone that came close in, yet he refused to stay away. He was, as chessy as it sounds, my knight in shining armor but this time I just couldn't be saved. There was another knock on the door and I groaned. 

"Please, just leave me alone Chris," I mumbled quietly.

"So she speaks!" Ryan Ashley's voice said.

I peaked out from under the blanket at her and she smilled. "Get dressed, I'm taking you out." 

I shook my head refusing to face the world I was hiding from. She sat down on the bed beside me and sighed. 

"What did this to you?" She asked, her voice full of concern. 

"Nothing," I said back reluctant to speak. "That's the problem." 

"Chris said you won't even speak to him. Did he do something?" 

I shook my head no as my response. 

"Get your ass up and let's go," she said playfuly.

Out of no where I felt tears spilling into my eyes and within the minute I was balling.

"Hey! What did I say wrong? I'm sorry," Ryan Ashley said franticly. 

"N...nothing," I choked out. I had no idea where the random spell of tears had come from or why I was upset in the first place. Nothing made sence to me at this point and it made me feel even more drowned in the darkness to be clueless. How could I escape from this? I heard footsteps and looked up to see Chris once again. 

"I heard you crying and wanted to make sure you were okay," he said softly but still voicing his concern. 

"I'm fine," I whispered. 

He came and stood beside us and Ryan Ashley decided to get up and leave us be. He sat in her place and played with my hair. "Baby, I know you aren't okay," he said with a frown on his face. "Not to be mean, but when you walk in a room it's like a cloud follows you around and makes the whole place darker. I know that's probably not what you want to hear right now."

"No it's fine," I told him sniffling back the left over tears. 

"I'm glad you're finally having a conversation with me."

"I'd hardly call this a conversation," I responded. 

He chuckeled and stood up smiling down at me. "I'm going to go make you some tea. I know it helps calm you down."