Sometimes I wonder how broken I actually am. I mean, I can cry at the most normal things, things that people would look at and feel fine, like nature, the rain, the sky, birds flying, a house in the distance, but I can't look at these things without feeling that empty feeling in my chest. Songs make me cry too, songs like Antidote, The Call, How Am I Supposed To Die, Never Forget You, Rule The World, Viva La Vida, Fine On The Outside, Take Me Out and Moonshadow. It's like something is trying to tell me that there are cracks in my heart that can't be fixed and I have moments where I just think "yeah, I think I'm just about ready to die now" I just feel as though I'm done, I want to be reborn in a life where things are better. I hate it here, I just hate it so much.
