Why Can't It Be Me!

Ch.04

Many thoughts were going through my mind about the dream that I had. I didn't even realize that class had already ended. I also didn't even realize that Josh was now sitting in front of me and calling my name. What was he still doing here? Why is he talking to me? "Hey Di...Kim, are you alright? You didn't look so good earlier."

Why has Josh been acting so nice to me recently and not being a... dick? Why is he being all... weird? "Yeah I'm fine! Why do you care?! Besides I thought you said that you never wanted me and Sam to ever talk to you at school. So why are you talking to me?" I said in a sassy and annoyed way. "Wow, calm down there Kim I was just trying to be nice and also check to see if you were alright."

"Well as you can see I'm fine, so I think you should leave." I said. "Jeez okay fine, I'll leave, I guess I'll see you around Kim." With that he left. When he finally left I let out a sigh of relief. "Wait why am I even blushing, I don't like Josh, I can't like him, he is a stupid dick, jerk, asshole, and even better a fuckboy. I can't be falling for him, can I?

What am I thinking. Even if, IF, I did like him he would never go out with me. I am not one of those pretty, very outgoing, cheerleading, or popular girls that he is always around. Anyways, Josh and I aren't even close or friends at that anymore. Ahhhhhh, I have to get these thoughts out of my head. I have to focus on school, after all I'm a senior now.

I can't have thoughts of boys or dating now. I have to do well so that I can have a good future. I need to focus on what is going on in my life now and not what is going to happen in the future. I have to make my parents proud so that I can be good enough to take over the company. I can't make the same mistake that Katie, my twin sister, made.