Deep in the night, struggling to win this fight
My body needs sleep, but awake I must keep
In a nightmare, I will not fare
There is to much death, I must save my final breath
If I sleep, my fear will reap
I must not sleep, I am in to deep
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But I feel my eyes slide shut, I prepare for the deepest cut
Instead darkness fills my head, and my soul leaves this warm bed
I enter a dark reality, full of pain and brutality
But I must open my eyes, before I feed myself lies
Finding myself in a little town, I know this is where I got my cap and gown
I want to die, I want to cry
This place is only pain, I left this place in vein
There is a reason I was sent back to this horrid place, my fears, i must finally face
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I try to find an old friend, I want to see her in the end
I've known her since sixth grade, but our friendship will fade
I want to say hi, but instead I whisper a good-bye
I pray she finds that perfect guy, I will try to be her guide
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I must visit an old high school pair, for them, I really do care
They were with me in the pain, with me in the rain
Finally finding them, I want to say hi, but instead I whisper a good-bye
I don't want them to see what I am, for if they do, I will be damned
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My next task will kill me inside, please don't make me do it, I will abide
I can not stand to see her, she is with another
She left me for someone better, leaving me alone to weather
There is no blame for I am full of shame
She was perfect,I was life's defect
But if it must be, then I would love to see
Her true beauty, given to a better guy
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I stare at her through the window's glass, I should have just passed
For now I am full of pain, and it has become to rain
I begin to cry, I really just want to die
She is so happy without me, but I guess it was meant to be
I can not stay, her entire life is at bay
As I begin to walk away, I hear a calling so far away
I must not turn, or I will forever burn
Now that I know what I must od, so that, this day I will not rue
I withdraw a gun, she begins to run
I whisper a good-bye, she begins to cry
The gun explodes, my body erodes
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But I am not truly dead, for I awake in this bed
I realize I am shaking, what is this fear making
I realize it was just a nightmare, somehow I managed to fare
The dream is gone until tommorow's dawn
When I shake again