wangtober // jacksonxgot7

DAY 1 - Pegging (jackbum)

Word Count: 4,498

disclaimer; jaebum is female in this one, jackson still doesn't top. also this sucks please don't clown me

Jackson looked at Jaebum's face for a few seconds then looked away. Holding eye contact with her had always been hard, either he was too embarrassed to or the intensity of her eyes just made him feel so small and insignificant.

"Hey," her voice, like it always was when addressing him, was gentle. Jackson chanced another glance at her and Jaebum smiled. "You know what i always tell you when I bring up trying something new. You dont ever have to agree just because you think it'll please me."

Jackson knew that, he did and that's why he was never afraid of trying new things with her. She was always so reassuring and firm about his comfort being first than anything else. Jackson sometimes belittled himself for being so weak compared to her, but then he realized, he wasn't weak. Their personalities were different sure, but weren't everyone else's different? They worked well because they were different and Jackson doubted they'd work if he tried to be someone he wasn't just to make his inner demons happy.

Jaebum grabbed his hand and linked their fingers together, bringing his focus back to their conversation. "I know that. I always think everything through, we both do, remember?"

"Of course." She nodded and gave him a soft smile, squeezing his hand in reassurance, so gentle like always.

He just had to think. "Have you ever tried it before? I mean with someone else?" Jaebum looked off to the side and Jackson's heart lurched because he knew that look. It's something she'd do when she knew her answer might trigger something in him. This time it was jealousy. Irrational as it was, Jackson always felt even a tiny bit of jealousy whenever Jaebum confirmed having done anything remotely sexual with her previous partners. It was stupid and he always wondered why he'd even ask, but Jaebum never lied to him and never went into detail anyway, so he asked.

"With one or two, I don't exactly remember with which ones." Her eyes locked with his as she shrugged nonchalantly, thankfully not saying anything else about the one or two she 'didn't exactly remember'.

"Oh, okay." Jackson bit his lip nervously and nodded. "Maybe just... give me a few days to really think about it?" It was the best answer he could give at the moment and Jaebum, ever so understanding smiled again and pressed a kiss to the back of his hand.

"As long as you need, baby. Always." Baby. Jackson could feel his cheeks flushing with heat. Jaebum had a way of always making him embarrassed. She loved it, the way every pet name made him go soft and pliant. She always let him know it was so cute.

"Thank you, noona." That was another thing Jaebum absolutely loved, when Jackson called her noona. At first it had started because she loved teasing him and hearing him whine about it, but then it had become a normal thing and Jaebum had grown used to hearing it and Jackson had growm used to saying it, so it just stayed.

"You don't have to thank me, Sseun-ah." Jackson knew that, but he always felt like he needed to remind Jaebum that he was grateful for her being so understanding.

And that was that, Jaebum directed their attention to the television, curling around him with her fingers running gently through his hair, not saying anything further about what they were talking about.

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It turns out that Jackson's few days turned into two weeks and then into an entire month.

Jaebum was patient like she always was with these things, never pressuring him about his decision or asking if he'd had an answer already. Jackson figured she probably thought his silence meant 'no' and he was once again reminded of how much he loved her and why.