Every Day

Yesterday

Years had pass and still, here I am. Don't know if I'm just existing for an unknown reason, or just living for an uncertain purpose.

All those unforgettable memories were still clear to me as if it only happened yesterday.

I remember those days when I was young. Doing the things we want, the things where we can be happy. Go to places as if we're in an another world, playing hero-villain roles. Explore new things we never knew that existed, and be amazed for something so magnificent in front of our eyes. How much fun did we made back then?

Those childhood memories were so precious, it reminds me that I already experienced a lifetime happiness. And I wish it could last before this world get serious.

I moved forward, and along the way, I've met new friends. Friends that I wouldn't expect to be a bad influence. Friends that I wouldn't expect to be my enemy. Some friends who entered my life as if nothing, someone who just passed by.

Still, there's few who did remain by my side. Trustworthy and true reliable friend that I can depend on. And sometimes, that person is a friend that I wouldn't expect to be one of my best. One or twos who values and treasures me. And even if we part ways, I won't ever forget those feelings.

So many great memories of being with them, moments when we were still together, laughing and crying at the same time, overcoming those problems in life, and encouraging each other's lives.

I feel like, they just happened yesterday. So crystal clear, and I missed them. How I wished I can relived those moments. But sadly, time never goes back nor even rewind, it only moves forward. And it's your discretion if you want to go forward, or be left behind.

Also, the worst and most painful moments of our lives. The most embarrassing moment I wish to never happened, most heartbreaking time I wish to heal, a gloomy night filled with sobs as those tears continues to shed.

A moment so painful you could die and just give up. Memories you wish you never had. The struggles and hardships you're still facing.

Everynight before I go to sleep, while enduring those muscle pain, headache from studies, even heartache from someone. Those memories will flash suddenly before me, taking me back and making me feel those same kinds of emotions again.

Then I realized something. I don't exist for nothing, I exist because I have them. And having them is enough for me to live the life I'm struggling for, the life I wanted to live.

You can't turn back time, but you can recall those memories. It's like going back, but not physically. It reminds us about what happened, about our past. Memories never go away, but they fade until they're forgotten.

A moment that only last for a moment. A fragment that stays, but will fade as time moves forward.