Not So Easy Robron

"Why is so hard for you to see "

Roberts pov
"You coming to bed "I say
"Um I'll be up in a bit I have work . Accounts and that "Aaron says
"Aaron please don't lie to me. I watched your do the accounts int he office today so if there's something going on I'd like to know "
"Nothing is going on Robert now leave it "
"Aaron are you cutting yourself again "
He's silent
"It's terrifying when you stop denying it because you've given up . Well guess what Aaron I haven't "
"Robert you left us for three years . You all most killed a man. I nearly lost you, Robert I can't lose you "
"And I can't lose you . What about Seb and Liv , what about your mum and paddy , what about your sister and your nephew , what about me . "
"It's not anyone's fault it all mine "
"Aaron why can't you just talk to me "
"Because it's not your problem. Anyway I don't wanna talk about this anymore "
"If it was me cutting myself to shreds would you want to talk about it "
"Of course I would Robert but then you might understand why I can't talk to you or my mum or anyone because you don't understand "
"But Aaron I'm trying "
"I know"
"When did it start"
"Robert "
"Aaron I'm serious when did it start "
"Two weeks ago "
"Graces anniversary "
"I don't know what it was "
"Me, I'm the problem "
"Robert were not doing this again "
"I know we're not but you need to talk to me "
"What if I can't "
"Why is so hard for you to see that I love you Aaron" I yell
"Because people don't love me "he yell
"And People don't forgive me "
"Because I love you "
"I know you do and I love you to"
"I'm broken Robert why would you want that "
"Because the Aaron I fell in love with was this sarcastic, stubborn lad but he also had so much fear and he was broken. I fell in love with you Aaron because even when you can't I will . I'll always be there no matter how much you try to push me away I'm always here."
"Your the first person who stayed "
"So are you "
I hug him tightly
"Come on let's go upstairs I'll look at them "
"Thank you for not being mad "
"One step at a time "
"Yeah "
The next day
At the pub
"Hey Chas have you got a minutes"
"Robert can it wait "she says handing Tracy her drink
"It's Aaron "
"What happened and who do I need to kill. Is everyone okay. Is it Seb "
"Everyone's fine chas , well sort of, I think we to do this somewhere else"
"Robert just tell me your really starting to scare me "
Vic walks in through the back
"Hey Robert "Vic says
"Hey, do you mind doing us a favour watch the bar. I need to have a word with chas"
"Sure "she says
We sit in a quite corner
"I'm not making a big deal out if it because I'm sorting it but Aaron's had a bit of a wobble "
"What kind of wobble "
"Chas you can't flip because he's really worried about you. Graces anniversary triggered it all . He started cutting himself again"
"You what"
"I only found out last night. He doesn't know I've told you so don't make a deal out of it."
"Where is he now"
"With Adam "
"Good "She says
"Robert thank you for this. I know it's been hard for him but now that your back he can get his life back in order "
"Your a good mum chas . It's just a wobble "
"I know but when you hear that you think you've failed . The first thing your supposed to do as a mother is protect your kids and I haven't done that . "She says
I hug her
"You've made mistakes like we all have but you've learnt from them "
"It doesn't change that my son thinks his only option is cutting himself . I want him to be able to talk to me"
"And he knows he can it's just Aaron bottles it up . It's why I had to confront him last night. He wouldn't tell me directly so I had to tell him how it was"
"What's going on"I see Aaron walk over
"Don't worry . Just come here "Chas says letting go of me and hugging Aaron
"I'm so sorry baby ."
"What for mum"Aaron says
"I've such a terrible mother . I'm so sorry . I've failed you and I'm just sorry "Chas says
"Your not a bad mum. Your the best one I've ever had "
"Thanks love "
I smile
"How about you come and get Seb with me "Aaron says
"Yeah I'd love that "chas says