My Online May December Love Affair

chapter 4

Summer's POV

It was midnight and I couldn't sleep no matter what I did. I was tired of playing games and reading manga. I even re watched one of my favourite anime but still couldn't beat my sleeplessness. I tried everything I could. Then I looked at my phone again and check my manga app,
 
One of my favorite manga updated then I  comment down, many of readers comment back. It's really fun, I wish it's also has chat app, where all the readers can talk to each other. Just then, I tried to search a chatroom.

I tried to log in and saw many users who were in the room. I tried to chat one of them, who was from Turkey he was an interesting guy who added a bit of humor in the chat which was really good. It was a while since I chatted to someone and now I became a regular user of this chatapp. I came across different kind of people, some of them looking for a real romance, that includes me.

I am a single with one daughter aged 5 whose name is Scarlett. I separated from her dad a year ago and raised her alone. Its not easy being a single mother looking after my restaurant business and also taking care of Scarlett. In the beginning I thought I would just be ok with a friendly chat, but things changed when I met Noelle Smith, a divorcee and retired Navy person

We had a lot of things in common including our interests for campervan or camper trailer. I been watching all models in YouTube and always dreamt of traveling across our country in it. Me and Noelle quickly became friends. He was a nice guy who was always there when I needed someone to talk with, when I have a questions about medicine for my daughter. He's used to give me advice and I slowly realised that I started to rely on him

He didn't keep his feelings for me. Infact he is always vocals about it, he even called me love at first it scared me a little, but he always assured me that he won't be demanding. I gave him a chance, despite our huge age Gap, I still gave consideration of his feelings. 

Our relationship has never been easy, especially managing our schedules. But we managed to cope and make our relationship work. I met his family through a video call. He had a daughter and two grandkids. He always shared his valuable time with his family. I noticed that he was loved by his family and felt happy for him, but at the same time I feel sad thinking of the different worlds we both are in. That's true, his life seems colourful while my life is one big mess. This sometimes makes me feel guilty of this long distance relationship.

My restaurant is closing down next year as I lost the control of the land. It belonged to my ex-husband and I can't blame him for selling at the best price which I imagine anyone would do. He went to my house to visit Scarlett. I know Scarlett is not only his reason for visiting, as he still hasn't given up on me. He told me that he was just there always, waiting for me. But since I met Noelle, my love for him seems fading away.