i watch her wipe her tears away hoping no one notices as she continues to dance
she gets into her uber and the tears roll down harder
she doesn't know i'm there but i'm seated beside her watching her cry into her hands
i want to hold her, comfort her, because i know that's all she needs right now
she feels broken, worthless
she's in pain and i can't help her
she continues to cry
she cries until she gets home and as she walks in through the front door, i follow
she's crying harder now
i haven't seen her cry this hard since the last time she had her heart broken
i think she forgets that pain she felt
i think she forgets that she made it through that pain
what she feels now she feels like she can't over come and i watch her everyday as she loses herself as she cries herself to sleep
i want to wipe her tears away i want to take her pain away
but i can't
i watch her cry
she cries until she's exhausted until there's no more tears
she lays on the floor in her silk robe
eyes puffy
nose runny
she wants to die
but she doesn't
she just wants to not feel this pain inside her chest
i stand over her wanting to pick her up
i want her to grab my hand so i can lift her up
remind her of all that she has overcome
remind her that after the rain there's always a rainbow
remind her that this will make her stronger
remind her that there is better to come
remind her that this is not the end for her
i scream at her begging her to grab my hand
but i am just a small voice in her head
the other side of her
watching her
as she drowns in this heartbreak.
