❗️suicide Attempt❗️
Peters POV:
"I love you."
"I miss you."
"Why did you have to leave so soon?"
I looked down at my shoes. How are these the only things that I could say to him. He is gone. And all I have left is a pair of his glasses and a sweater that kinda still smells like him. I looked up at his gravestone, it read:
Anthony Edward Stark
1970 - 2023
Taken too early
'Why? Why did Tony have to die? Why not me?' I thought.
My vision then became very blurry as my eyes filled with tears. As a tear rolled down my cheek I set the roses I got him down.
"Sometimes I think about our first date. We went to the movies remember? I think it was Men In Black- I cant remember much about it but I do remember after. You walked me to my door and just before I opened the door, you kissed me." I said. "That was our first kissed" I chuckled. "It was the first of many... I miss you a lot. I miss your lips. I miss the way you wrap your arms around my waist when I work. I miss when you would come to bed at 5 in the morning after along day of working." I broke down crying. "The house is so empty, Tony. I wish you were here. I wish you could hug me and tell me everything would be ok. I want life to go back to normal." My hands were freezing, I looked down. Tony would say to put some mitts on. "I wish I had one last hug. One last kiss. One last talk." After crying for a good hour, I sat in silence.
"I would say so much if I could talk to you one more time. You were my first and last love. I will never love anyone as much as I love you. If I could redo our time together, I wouldn't change a thing." I cried. "Everything reminds me of you. The house. The park. The movie theatre. Everything. No one could ever understand how much I love you, not even you." My eyes were red and puffy as I sat talking to Tony. "Oh god Tony, you mean the world to me." My voice broke. I checked my watch, 10:30 PM. "Well... it's 10:30. I have to leave. But I'll come back tomorrow, love. Good night. I love you." I kissed my hand and set it on his tombstone. I looked up and a thousands of tears rolled down my cheeks. I got up and went to my car. I looked in the direction of where Tony was buried. "I love you" I whispered as I got in the car.
I drove home crying.
When I got out of the car I could barely walk.
I walked into the house and kicked off my shoes, took off my jeans and t-shirt. I was left in my boxers and got into Tony's sweater. I sat on the edge of the bed, sobbing. "Why?" I couldn't see at this point, there were too many tears. "It hurts so much Tony." I yelled. "It's too much." I tried to dry my eyes, which didn't work, I got up and turned on some music. Say You Won't Let Go by James Arthur came on.
I climbed into bed and sobbed my eyes out. 'I'm not going to work tomorrow.' I thought. 'Why am I still alive?'
I cried myself to sleep, I didn't get much sleep though because I had a nightmare. The image of Tony dying kept playing in my head.
I woke up with my breathing heavy and tears streaming down. I looked at the clock, 3:24. At the point Unsteady by X Ambassadors was on.
"I can't do this anymore." I cried. I sat up and walked into the bathroom. I grabbed my razor and took the blades out. I sat on the edge of the tub contemplating my life.
'If I do this I will be with Tony. But then aunt May will be alone.' I thought. A voice in my head kept saying: 'do it pussy!'
I took the razor and dragged it across my skin. "Ow" I said, my voice was rough and wobbly. It started to bleed. I took a bandage from the cupboard and wrapped it. 'What do i do now?' I thought. There was no way I was going to sleep after that.
I decided to watch TV, I turned it on and flipped to Netflix. I put on the office.
'Maybe I'll fall asleep.' I thought as I watched.
Luckily I did. I woke up at noon the next day.
'Great, another day.' I thought sarcastically.
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A/N
What's up. I cried making this. I'm sorry. Tell me if you want me to do a part two.
Also, I'll take recommendations.
Marvel or Harry Potter preferably
I could do anime ones but I might be the only one that wants that.
So, tell me what you guys want. Ok?
Thanks ❤️✌️
