Ive been in this cage for years. Ive been hurt, threatened, and humiliated by the same people, Ive been thrown back in the same cage by the same people, but the main person who does all this to me is myself. The bars are all rusted and old but I cant break them. Im to weak. No matter which cage Im in Im to weak to break the goddamn bars.
In one of the cages, Im in the middle of the room, but the cage is always in the middle of a room. The room around me is getting hotter and hotter until it on fire. Theres a person by the door, but its blurry. Your yelling in anger, and that person leaves and closes the door behind them. Im yelling louder and louder to let me go, but no one hears me. Im getting madder by the second, and the madder I get the hotter it gets. My anger is lighting the fire, its making it worse, I know that, but I cant help it. Im left alone in this fire, no one can hear me, and no one can see me.
In the second cage, your still in the same room, stuck in the same cage, but its cold. Its almost pitch black, but you cant see any light eithere. You can hear peoples footsteps, voices, just any noise that is made around you, you hear. Everything is ten times louder than it should be, and Im going crazy because of it. I cant do anything about it so i sit against the freezing cold bars of this cage. On the floor, in the corner, holding my knees against my chest. Going so insane because of all the chaos and noise, that when people look at you, you seem calm, but Im not.
Every once in a while its not hot or cold, its just like every other day. This time your numb amd everything on me feels like static. I cant feel anything so then all I do is smile amd laugh it off. Im still in the same cage, its just that this time Im disconnected from everything I do, Im disconnected from everything I see. Everything is still ten times louder, but Im so disconnected from life that I dont seem to care that everythings ringing in my head.
