Feeling

something suitable

She took the black earphone in her hands which were placed on her wooden  table some inches away from her paperwork which is half done and  she is feeling exhausted to continue that , so for a change she thought to take a break n to listen some melody n relax .

She plugged the earphones in her mobile n her 👂 and searching for music , suddenly some words caught her attention her heart want to listen that , but her fingers are following brain's function n confused to click on that or not .

Eyes fixed on screen n mind blank face showing a war , finally her finger up showing she has taken a decision and clicked on that particular song .

Dil mera tere te mardaa
Kalla baike aahen bhar da
Tainu taras kyu aave na
Lakh koshishaan ae kar da
Naam tera kyu ni mit da
Koi ilaaj bataave na

These words played in her ears and she closed her eyes to listen this melody n relax back .

Dil nu pata hai tu taan
Laa layi hai yaariyaan ve
Kisi aur naal

But her eyes flew open to listen to the next lines and she found the song familiar to her situation and a lump form in her throat as she realises it describes reality of her life and she have to swallow this fact , neither she have option of leave and let go of her first love n smile nor she can happily live her all life with him .

She definitely know that his life is only devoted to his love ,which she can never forget but she  having one wish  to be the same to him , she chuckled at her thought .After all she very well , he will never betray her this is the best quality what she liked in him and for which she love him .
He can never forget his rosh
His wife
His better half
The love which he has only for her .

Har chehre mein
Tu dikhdaa ae
Kaise bata hum tujhko bhulaadein
Ve nikla tu harjaai
Kis baat ki tune
Di ye sazaayein
Kainda si mainu dega wafaayein
Tu yaari khoob nibhaayi

After listening to above lines she thought this song is like her life
Feeling similar but yet far , like she is from this happy go lucky type world.
She can never blame him for developing such feeling for him coz he had no idea about it , did he ..?

Koi tareeka
Mainu sikha de
Jo dil ye toota jod lein

She wAnt an escape from all these non stopping thoughts but her heart still hopes for a reciprocation from her first love , a tear escaped from her eyes n touched floor , she didn't care to wipe it off coz she know nobody is there to see the pain , to comfort her , and in case somebody come to know then also it is of no use coz they can give her only false hopes which she given herself for so long .

She want to know exactly what is in his heart
Kya sachmuch unke dil mein mere like kuch nahi ?
Then what about the care n his talks
His eyes which she want in her whole life .

People says love is the most beautiful feeling in this world , she wanted to experience it , she waited waited n waiting ..
But it  is converting into most painful one for her , which needs an immediate care .

She closes her eyes n imagine herself in a warm embrace full of love n care n a smile crept on her lips .

This is the most important n comforting part of a One sided love .

She open her eyes n her broad smile slightly faded when she saw someone.

He comes in the conference hall found it empty n was going to leave when his eyes caught something or u can say someone .

A cute beautiful girl with dimple smile , n it is looking like she is wishing something .

Just then she open her eyes n he sees something which bothers him .everytime his eyes meet hers he had seen a myriad of emotions n that intensity feels dangerous just like his eyes carrying the revenge for his rosh.

Dil nu pata hai tu taan
Laa layi hai yaariyaan ve
Kisi aur naal

He very well know what she wants , she is neber gonna ask him or pressure him to be with her or for any relationship or  to reciprocate but her sad eyes are screaming in behalf of her .

Both are helpless 
They can't change anything
They knew this will take another turn
N the whole scenario will be changed with time but it seems eternity.

She smiles , n he replies in a smile
Both knows what it means .
Then the eyes rolled take another direction n duo try to be busy in something other .

Some stories are like this only
One sided
Incomplete forever
Wanting some answers
Which they knew they'll never get .
When you can't describe the person
He or she is right or wrong .
You will find it correct as it is
Yet you want it to be like
A normal life
A normal love
A soulmate .

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Hey dearies
This is on my favt ariya
I love them n there stories very much .
And this is my thoughts
As I m kind of one sided , sad , type dukhi ...😁😁
So I just write it down .

Sorry if you not like the adhoora thing .