The Monster | j.b (under editing)

Chapter 6

Justin
I cut my skin over and over, probably destroying the tattoos I was so in love with. Blood running down my arm, me not caring. I heard footsteps which probably belonged to Cara, but I didn't care. I didn't care about anything. Cara hated me, so what should I live for? The only person who cared for me and actually liked me, now hated me.
I stared at the blood running down my arm as the door flew open. My head shoot up and I looked at Cara who dropped her class of water. She stood there, speechless. She didn't dare to move as I looked back down at my arm, realizing the mess I made, but not saying a word. I felt bad. I thought I'd get better but now I'm back. Back at the beginning.
See, you should've jumped.
Shaking I placed the blade beside me and looked up again to see Cara walking towards me. "Why are you so stupid, Justin. I'm so sorry, Justin." She had tears in her eyes but didn't let them out. "Kid." She shook her head and took my bloody hand in hers. Then she stood up, cleaned my cuts and put a bandage on them. I sat on the edge of the bath tube while Cara kneed in front of me as she fixed the bandage. I just stared at her, wondering why she would help me. She is so beautiful with her clear blue eyes which were filled with sadness. As she was finished she looked at me and placed her right hand on my left cheek. I've never saw her that sad. I was pretty surprised as she smiled softly at me and run her other hand through my hair. "I'm sorry. So sorry." Then she hugged me and I hugged her back, standing up and bringing her back to her feet. "Don't", I murmured and sighed. She took a little distance and looked me in the eyes. My heart fluttered and suddenly butterflies were flying around in my stomach. My breathing quickened as I studied every inch of her face, realizing how perfect she was. Now it was me who placed the hand on her cheek. I placed the other one on her hip and pulled her softly towards me. She closed her eyes as she felt my breath on her face.
And then it hit me, I couldn't control it. I just did it. I closed my eyes and placed my lips on hers. So soft like the inside of a rose. We slowly began to move our lips in sync and I was so thankful that she kissed back. I felt a tear on my hand and opened my eyes and broke the kiss just to see her crying. Cara opened her eyes too and smiled at me and hugged me. She hugged me so tight I barely could breath, but I didn't care. "Why are you crying?" I asked, whispering. "Because you are amazing. So amazing but you don't know."

Cara
Justin kept quiet and suddenly picked me up and carried me to my room just to lay me down. He looked at me, unsure if he should lay beneath me or not. I just looked at him with a pleading look and then he placed himself beneath me. "I'm sorry that I did what I did." I sat up. "Justin, you don't need to be sorry. But it's important that you don't ever do it again. Never." He slowly nodded and looked at me with adoring eyes as he crawled on top of me and placed a kiss on my nose. "Cara, you make me so happy. I'm sorry that I fucked this hoe. But I promise you that I didn't kiss her. Because I don't kiss sluts." I just nodded. "It's none of my business. I can't control you, I can just be here for you. Taking distance from you was probably the most wrong thing I could do." I whispered and looked down. He kissed my forehead. "Let's sleep." I cuddled up in his arms with mixed emotions. What were we now?

I woke up to a snoring Justin. I smiled and stood up, taking a shower. After I was finished, I went downstairs and made breakfast. It was finished as Justin came downstairs. "Good morning, beautiful." He kissed my forehead and I smiled. "Good morning. I made us breakfast." He looked at the table and sat down. "You're the best." I smiled and sat down too. It was kind of awkward between us. He wasn't sure what to say and I wasn't sure neither. The kiss changed things between us. We couldn't say we were best friends anymore because we are more than that, well at least I think so.
"Stop thinking so much, Cara." Justin smiled at me. I smiled back. "Sorry." I watched him eat. He was the cutest, most beautiful and sexiest human being alive. "Do I have something in my face?" He asked and touches his face. I grinned. "Shut up." He laughed and then kept eating.
I guess I was some sort of head over heels with this mess. My mess.
"We're going hiking today." Justin said while we were doing the dishes. "Me? Hiking? You must be kidding!", I pouted but he laughed. "Nope. I'm not." I sighed and finished the dishes. I'm not good with outdoor sports at all. Okay, hiking isn't really a sport, but still. I'm just lazy, don't blame me.

"My feet hurt!" I whined. "We're there soon!" I sighed and followed him.
When we arrived where he wanted to be, I couldn't stop staring. It was the most beautiful place I've ever been to. "And?", he asked smiling. "Wow", I murmured and sat down on the edge where you could see the whole city. Justin sat beside me. "We're staying here I guess." Justin unpacked his bag and I watched him smiling. This guy is fascinating me. He started singing while unpacking the bag and I filmed him. For my luck, he didn't notice it. I put the video on Instagram and watched the likes rise up. "Justin, I think your fans enjoy you unpacking the bag." I grinned and gave him my phone. "You didn't do that!" He placed my phone behind him and started tickling me. I could barely breath and already had tears in my eyes. "Now you look like a tomato." I started laughing again and before I could even look his lips were on mine. I relaxed and kissed him back. I think my heart hasn't beaten so fast in a very long time. I placed my hands on his cheeks and enjoyed the kiss more than I enjoyed my favorite cookies. As we stopped the kiss Justin looked me in the eyes and smiled softly. "But that's not what best friends are for", I whispered against his lips. "I know. But I need to sort out my feelings", he smirked and got off me. I just shook my head and still felt kind of dizzy because of his lips. I was speechless. Since when was he so confident? I knew, that he used to be confident, I mean he is good looking and he can sing, oh god, how good he can sing. His voice gives me goosebumps just by talking.
I got up and took my phone in my hands and saw that he had deleted the video. "You're an ass", I murmured and put my phone back in my bag. "I know. But a sexy one, right?" I laughed and slapped him across his head. "Shut up, Bieber."

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A/N:

Hey guys, I'm sorry this chapter sucks so much and it's so freaking short and you had to wait so long but I have a writer's block.

I really hope it'll be over in the next chapter, don't hate me.

love ya xo