Thoughts That Can't Be Spoken

Thoughts 001

I want to have my life!

27 years of existence but still i can't have a so called Life.

What is LIFE then?

Everyday I wake up, I eat, I move, I speak, and then sleep again.

I got no stable work. I had it 3 years ago in a public hospital but i decided to change plans and go out of my box. And chaaaaran! I GOT NO WORK!
I depend my life to others (that sucks!)

My parents? I have my father to live with. The relationship is bad. Of course the blame or the problem is with me. I am the daughter right? I must adjust to him. And i hate it! I cant do what i want because i am afraid to hurt him but in the end i still hurt him. And i feel guilty!!!!

I hate this feelings!

😭

Hatred and Guilt.