Waiting for the sunrise

This story is dedicated to all people who are suicidal or bullied. You're all in my prayers <3

You said to be myself mom

so I did what you said.

I tried to make friends mom

but they walked away instead.

why do they not like me mom

do they think that I'm not nice.

they always shun me mom

why are they as cold as ice.

I don't get invited to their parties mom

do they think that I'm not cool.

but I'll tell you what's not cool mom

they act like they rule the school.

why did this happen to me mom

why do they pick on me.

I expressed my individuality mom

but they acted like queen bees.

they call me horrible names mom

ones you tell me not to repeat.

they do horrible things tome mom

much worse than a pin on your seat.

would it be better to die mom

to leave this world behind.

do they see that they hurt me mom

or are they just that blind.

I feel like I'm drowning mom

dependent the murky waves.

and no one sees me mom

it appears that there is no one to save.

I rarely ever speak mom

it seems I have nothing to say.

I cry all the time mom

but no one notices anyway.

those kids act so sweet mom

when the adults are around.

but when we're alone mom

they corner me and my heart begins to pound.

they turned others against me mom

now tell me how's that fair.

they laugh while they tease me mom

it's worse than someone pulling your hair.

I'm not the girl I was mom

she's long gone you know.

she left a while ago mom

back when her world began to snow.

I wish I could explain mom

what is happening to me.

if only I could explain mom

this monstrosity.

just know that I love you mom

and my siblings and dad too

and I know youll always hold me mom

when I don't know what to do.

and I always will love you mom

as I wait out the darkness my life has become.

I will wait mom

I will wait for the sunrise to come.